ill-fated rising of General Torrijos against the Spanish
Government, that protean nightmare which, in one form
or another of bigotry and oppression, has ridden that
unfortunate country up to a very recent time, when
civil war has again interfered with apparently little
prospect of any better result. My distress at
receiving such unexpected news from my brother was
aggravated by his forbidding me to write to him or
speak of his plans and proceedings to any one.
This concealment, which would have been both difficult
and repugnant to me, was rendered impossible by the
circumstances under which his letter reached me, and
we all bore together, as well as we could, this severe
disappointment and the cruel anxiety of receiving no
further intelligence from John for a considerable time.
I was bitterly grieved by this letter, which clearly
indicated that the sacred profession for which my
brother had begun to prepare himself, and in which
we had hoped to see him ere long honorably and usefully
laboring, was as little likely to be steadily pursued
by him as the legal career which he had renounced
for it. Richard Trench brought home a knowledge
of the Spanish tongue which has given to his own some
beautiful translations of Calderon’s masterpieces;
and his early crusade for the enfranchisement of Spain
has not militated against the well-deserved distinction
he has achieved in the high calling to which he devoted
himself. With my brother, however, the case was
different. This romantic expedition canceled
all his purposes and prospects of entering the Church,
and Alfred Tennyson’s fine sonnet, addressed
to him when he first determined to dedicate himself
to the service of the temple, is all that bears witness
to that short-lived consecration: it was poetry,
but not prophecy.
MANCHESTER,
September 3, 1830.
MY DEAREST H——,
I received you letter and the pretty Balbriggan stockings, for which I thank you very much, quite safely. I have not been able to put pen to paper till now, and even now do not know whether I can do more than just tell you that we have heard nothing further whatever from my brother. In his letter to me he said that he would write home whenever he could do so safely, but that no letter of ours would reach him; and, indeed, I do not now know where he may be. From the first moment of hearing this intelligence, which has amazed us all so much, I have felt less miserable than I could have thought possible under the circumstances; my mind, I think, has hardly taken hold of the truth of what has come so unexpectedly upon me. The very impossibility of relieving one’s suspense, I suppose, compels one not to give way to its worst suggestions, which may, after all, be unfounded. I cannot communicate with him, and must wait patiently till he can write again; he is in God’s hand, and I hope and pray that he may be guided and protected. My great anxiety is to keep