“I am ready and willing to do so;” but
it is nevertheless not altogether easy for me to do
it. My life in London leaves me neither
time nor opportunity for any self-culture, and
it seems to me as if my best faculties were lying
fallow, while a comparatively unimportant talent,
and my physical powers, were being taxed to the
uttermost. The profession I have embraced
is supposed to stimulate powerfully the imagination.
I do not find it so; it appeals to mine in a
slight degree compared with other pursuits; it
is too definite in its object and too confined in
its scope to excite my imagination strongly; and, moreover,
it carries with it the antidote of its own excitement
in the necessary conditions under which it is
exercised. Were it possible to act with
one’s mind alone, the case might be different;
but the body is so indispensable, unluckily,
to the execution of one’s most poetical
conceptions on the stage, that the imaginative powers
are under very severe though imperceptible restraint.
Acting seems to me rather like dancing hornpipes
in fetters. And, by no means the least difficult
part of the business is to preserve one’s own
feelings warm, and one’s imagination excited,
while one is aiming entirely at producing effects
upon others; surrounded, moreover, as one is,
by objects which, while they heighten the illusion
to the distant spectator, all but destroy it
to us of the dramatis personae. None
of this, however, lessens the value and importance
of your advice, or my own conviction that “mental
bracing” is good for me. My reception
on Monday was quite overpowering, and I was escorted
back to the hotel, after the play, by a body-guard
of about two hundred men, shouting and hurrahing
like mad; strange to say, they were people of
perfectly respectable appearance. My father
was not with us, and they opened the carriage door
and let down the steps, when we got home, and
helped us out, clapping, and showering the most
fervent expressions of good-will upon me and aunt
Dall, whom they took for my mother. One young
man exclaimed pathetically, “Oh, I hope
ye’re not too much fatigued, Miss Kemble, by
your exertions!” They formed a line on each side
of me, and several of them dropped on their knees
to look under my bonnet, as I ran laughing, with
my head down, from the carriage to the house.
I was greatly confused and a little frightened,
as well as amused and gratified, by their cordial
demonstration.
The humors of a Dublin audience, much as I had heard of them before going to Ireland, surprised and diverted me very much. The second night of our acting there, as we were leaving the theater by the private entrance, we found the carriage surrounded by a crowd eagerly waiting for our coming out. As soon as my father appeared, there was a shout of “Three cheers for Misther Char-les!” then came Dall, and “Three cheers for Misthriss Char-les!” then I, and “Three cheers for Miss Fanny!” “Bedad, she looks well by gas-light!”