when I before entertained an idea of them.
You asked me what inclined John’s thoughts
to the Church. It would be hard to say; or rather,
I ought to say, that Providence which in its own good
time makes choice of its instruments, and which
I ever firmly trusted would not suffer my brother’s
fine powers to be wasted on unworthy aims.
I am not able to say how the change which has taken
place in his opinions and sentiments was effected;
but you know one has not done all one’s
thinking at two and twenty. I have been by circumstances
much separated from my brother, and when with him
have had but little communication upon such subjects.
It was at a time when, I think, his religious
principles were somewhat unsettled, that his
mind was so passionately absorbed by politics.
The nobler instincts of his nature, diverted for
a while from due direct intercourse with their
divine source, turned themselves with enthusiastic,
earnest hope to the desire of benefiting his fellow-creatures;
and to these aims—the reformation of abuses,
the establishment of a better system of government,
the gradual elevation and improvement of the
people, and the general progress of the country
towards enlightened liberty and consequent prosperity—he
devoted all his thoughts. This was the period
of his fanatical admiration for Jeremy Bentham
and Mill, who, you know, are our near neighbors
here, and whose houses we never pass without John
being inclined to salute them, I think, as the shrines
of some beneficent powers of renovation.
And here comes the break in our intercourse and
in my knowledge of his mental and moral progress.
I went to Scotland, and was amazed, after I had
been there some time, to hear from my mother
that John had not got his scholarship, and had
renounced his intention of going to the bar and determined
to study for the Church. I returned home,
and found him much changed. His high sense
of the duties attending it makes me rejoice most sincerely
that he has chosen that career, which may not be the
surest path to worldly advancement, but if conscientiously
followed must lead, I should think, to the purest
happiness this life can offer. I think much
of this change may be attributed to the example and
influence of some deservedly dear friends of his; probably
something to the sobering effect of the disappointment
and mortification of his failure at college,
where such sanguine hopes and expectations of
his success had been entertained. Above all, I
refer his present purpose to that higher influence
which has followed him through all his mental
wanderings, suggesting the eager inquiries of
his restless and dissatisfied spirit, and finally
leading it to this, its appointed goal. He writes
to us in high spirits from Germany, and his letters
are very delightful.
Mrs. Siddons and Cecy are with Mrs. Kemble at Leamington. Mrs. Harry Siddons is, I fear, but little better; she has had another attack of erysipelas, and I am very anxious to