not seem to me a difficulty. My father said
the other day, “There is a fine fortune
to be made by any young woman, of even decent talent,
on the stage now.” A fine fortune
is a fine thing; to be sure, there remains a
rather material question to settle, that of “even
decent talent.” A passion for all
beautiful poetry I am sure you will grant me;
and you would perhaps be inclined to take my father
and mother’s word for my dramatic capacity.
I spoke to them earnestly on this subject lately,
and they both, with some reluctance, I think,
answered me, to my questions, that they thought, as
far as they could judge (and, unless partiality
blinds them entirely, none can be better judges),
I might succeed. In some respects, no girl intending
herself for this profession can have had better opportunities
of acquiring just notions on the subject of acting.
I have constantly heard refined and thoughtful
criticism on our greatest dramatic works, and
on every various way of rendering them effective
on the stage. I have been lately very frequently
to the theater, and seen and heard observingly,
and exercised my own judgment and critical faculty
to the best of my ability, according to these
same canons of taste by which it has been formed.
Nature has certainly not been as favorable to
me as might have been wished, if I am to embrace
a calling where personal beauty, if not indispensable,
is so great an advantage. But if the informing
spirit be mine, it shall go hard if, with a face
and voice as obedient to my emotions as mine
are, I do not in some measure make up for the
want of good looks. My father is now proprietor
and manager of the theatre, and those certainly
are favorable circumstances for my entering on
a career which is one of great labor and some
exposure, at the best, to a woman, and where a young
girl cannot be too prudent herself, nor her protectors
too careful of her. I hope I have not taken
up this notion hastily, and I have no fear of
looking only on the bright side of the picture, for
ours is a house where that is very seldom seen.
Good-by; God bless you! I shall be very anxious to hear from you; I sent you a note with my play, telling you I had just got up from the measles; but as my note has not reached you, I tell you so again. I am quite well, however, now, and shall not give them to you by signing myself
Yours
most affectionately,
FANNY.
P.S.—I forgot to answer your questions in telling you all this, but I will do so methodically now. My side-ache is some disturbance in my liver, evidently, and does not give way entirely either to physic or exercise, as the slightest emotion, either pleasurable or painful, immediately brings it on; my blue devils I pass over in silence; such a liver and my kind of head are sure to breed them.
Certainly I reverence Jeremy Bentham