influence on man, and that they were therefore on no account to be pursued with too great eagerness.  This conviction stamped and determined my whole being, just as my questioning examination and comparison of the inner with the outer world, and my study of their inter-connection, is now the basis of my whole future life.  Unceasing self-contemplation, self-analysis, and self-education have been the fundamental characteristics of my life from the very first, and have remained so until these latest days.

To stir up, to animate, to awaken, and to strengthen, the pleasure and power of the human being to labour uninterruptedly at his own education, has become and always remained the fundamental principle and aim of my educational work.

Great was my joy when I believed I had proved completely to my own satisfaction that I was not destined to go to hell.  The stony, oppressive dogmas of orthodox theology I very early explained away, perhaps assisted in this by two circumstances.  Firstly, I heard these expressions used over and over again, from my habit of being present at the lessons given by my father in our own house, in preparation for confirmation.  I heard them used also in all sorts of ways, so that my mind almost unconsciously constructed some sort of explanation of them.  Secondly, I was often a mute witness of the strict way in which my father performed his pastoral duties, and of the frequent scenes between him and the many people who came to the parsonage to seek advice and consolation.  I was thus again constantly attracted from the outer to the inner aspects of life.  Life, with its inmost motives laid bare, passed before my eyes, with my father’s comments pronounced upon it; and thing and word, act and symbol were thus perceived by me in their most vivid relationship.  I saw the disjointed, heavy-laden, torn, inharmonious life of man as it appeared in this community of five thousand souls, before the watchful eyes of its earnest, severe pastor.  Matrimonial and sexual circumstances especially were often the objects of my father’s gravest condemnation and rebuke.  The way in which he spoke about these matters showed me that they formed one of the most oppressive and difficult parts of human conduct; and, in my youth and innocence, I felt a deep pain and sorrow that man alone, among all creatures, should be doomed to these separations of sex, whereby the right path was made so difficult for him to find.  I felt it a real necessity for the satisfaction of my heart and mind to reconcile this difficulty, and yet could find no way to do so.  How could I at that age, and in my position?  But my eldest brother, who, like all my elder brothers, lived away from home, came to stay with us for a time; and one day, when I expressed my delight at seeing the purple threads of the hazel buds, he made me aware of a similar sexual difference in plants.  Now was my spirit at rest.  I recognised that what had so weighed upon me was an institution spread over all nature, to which even the silent, beautiful race of flowers was submitted.  From that time humanity and nature, the life of the soul and the life of the flower, were closely knit together in my mind; and I can still see my hazel buds, like angels, opening for me the great God’s temple of Nature.