My first thought was, he lied in every word,
That hoary cripple, with malicious eye
Askance to watch the working of his lie
On mine, and mouth scarce able to afford
Suppression deg. of the glee, that pursed and scored
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Its edge, at one more victim gained thereby.
What else should he be set for, with his staff?
What, save to waylay with his lies, ensnare
All travellers who might find him posted
there,
And ask the road? I guessed what skull-like laugh
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Would break, what crutch ’gin write deg. my
epitaph deg.11
For pastime in the dusty thoroughfare,
If at his counsel I should turn aside
Into that ominous tract which, all agree,
Hides the Dark Tower. Yet acquiescingly
I did turn as he pointed: neither pride
Nor hope rekindling at the end descried.
So much as gladness that some end might
be.
For, what with my whole world-wide wandering,
What, with my search drawn out thro’
years, my hope 20
Dwindled into a ghost not fit to cope
With that obstreperous joy success would bring,—
I hardly tried now to rebuke the spring
My heart made, finding failure in its
scope.
As when a sick man very near to death
Seems dead indeed, and feels begin and
end
The tears, and takes the farewell of each
friend,
And hears one bid the other go, draw breath
Freelier outside, ("since all is o’er,”
he saith,
“And the blow fallen no grieving
can amend;”) 30
While some discuss if near the other graves
Be room enough for this, and when a day
Suits best for carrying the corpse away,
With care about the banners, scarves, and staves:
And still the man hears all, and only craves
He may not shame such tender love and
stay.
Thus, I had so long suffered in this quest,
Heard failure prophesied so oft, been
writ
So many times among “The Band”—to
wit,
The knights who to the Dark Tower’s search addressed
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Their steps—that just to fail as they,
seemed best,
And all the doubt was now—should
I be fit?
So, quiet as despair, I turned from him,
That hateful cripple, out of his highway
Into the path he pointed. All the
day
Had been a dreary one at best, and dim
Was settling to its close, yet shot one grim
Red leer to see the plain catch its estray.
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For mark! no sooner was I fairly found
Pledged to the plain, after a pace or
two, 50
Than, pausing to throw backward a last
view
O’er the safe road, ’twas gone; gray plain
all round:
Nothing but plain to the horizon’s bound,
I might go on; naught else remained to
do.
So, on I went. I think I never saw
Such starved ignoble nature; nothing throve:
For flowers—as well expect
a cedar grove!
But cockle, spurge, according to their law
Might propagate their kind, with none to awe,
You’d think; a burr had been a treasure
trove. 60