Youth ended, I shall try
My gain or loss thereby;
Leave the fire ashes, what survives is gold:
And I shall weigh the same,
Give life its praise or blame:
Young, all lay in dispute; I shall know, being old.
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For, note when evening shuts,
A certain moment cuts
The deed off, calls the glory from the gray:
A whisper from the west
Shoots—“Add this to the rest,
Take it and try its worth: here dies another
day.”
So, still within this life,
Tho’ lifted o’er its strife,
Let me discern, compare, pronounce at last,
“This rage was right i’ the main,
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That acquiescence vain:
The Future I may face now I have proved the Past.”
For more is not reserved
To man, with soul just nerved
To act to-morrow what he learns to-day:
Here, work enough to watch
The Master work, and catch
Hints of the proper craft, tricks of the tool’s
true play.
As it was better, youth
Should strive, thro’ acts uncouth,
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Toward making, than repose on aught found made:
So, better, age, exempt
From strife, should know, than tempt
Further. Thou waitedst age: wait death,
nor be afraid!
Enough now, if the Right
And Good and Infinite
Be named deg. here, as thou callest thy hand thine
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With knowledge absolute,
Subject to no dispute
From fools that crowded youth, nor let thee feel alone.
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Be there, for once and all,
Severed great minds from small,
Announced to each his station in the Past!
Was I, deg. the world arraigned,
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Were they, my soul disdained,
Right? Let age speak the truth and give us peace
at last!
Now, who shall arbitrate?
Ten men love what I hate,
Shun what I follow, slight what I receive;
Ten, who in ears and eyes
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Match me: we all surmise,
They, this thing, and I, that: whom shall my
soul believe?
Not on the vulgar mass
Called “work,” must sentence pass,
Things done, that took the eye and had the price;
O’er which, from level stand,
The low world laid its hand,
Found straight way to its mind, could value in a trice:
But all, the world’s coarse thumb
And finger failed to plumb,
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So passed in making up the main account:
All instincts immature,
All purposes unsure,
That weighed not as his work, yet swelled the man’s
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Thoughts hardly to be packed
Into a narrow act,
Fancies that broke thro’ language and escaped:
All I could never be,
All, men ignored in me,
This, I was worth to God, whose wheel the pitcher
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