“In how many instances has he given a sudden turn to providences, which have been made means of my deliverance; not only so, but brought good out of my evil, so that I have been made to wonder, and to say,’ Surely this is the finger of God.’

“I destroy myself, but in thee is my help found.  O let these wanderings end; fix it deep on my mind, that in the Lord only have I wisdom as well as strength:  that ’it is not in man that walketh, to direct his steps.’  When shall I learn to live simply on Christ, by the light of his pure unerring word, and the Spirit coinciding; and have done with these carnal reasonings, the wisdom of men.  ’Search me, O Lord, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts, and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.’  Amen.”

“MAY 28, 1796.

“This is the anniversary of my dear Jessie’s birth, no more to call us together here; but I yet remember it as a day in which our God Was merciful to me, and made me the mother of an heir of salvation.  I bless, I praise my covenant God, who enabled me to dedicate her to him before she was born, and to ask only one thing for her as for myself, even an interest in his great salvation, leaving it to him to order the means, time, and manner, as of her natural birth and ripening age, so of her spiritual birth and ripening for glory; he accepted the charge, and he has finished the work, to his own glory, to her eternal happiness, and my joy and comfort.  I have witnessed remaining corruption fighting hard against her, and bringing her again and again into captivity to the law of sin and death warring against her.  I have seen the rod of God lie heavy upon her, according to the tenor of the covenant, when she forsook his laws and went astray:  when she walked not in his judgments, but wandered from his way, he visited her faults with rods and her sins with chastisements, but his loving-kindness he never took from her, though he often hid it, nor altered the word which he had spoken, that he would never leave her, never forsake her; that in due time he would deliver her from all her enemies.  I perceived her desires to be delivered from the world and the body, and taken home to the bosom of her God, since that appeared at times the only way she could be delivered from sin.  I heard her lament her unfruitfulness, her unsteadiness:  I heard her exclaim, ’Oh, what a sinner, what a great sinner;’ and, ’Oh, what a Saviour; O the goodness of God in hedging me in, and saving me from myself; his covenant stands fast, it is established, it is sure.’  I witnessed a God pardoning sin, yet taking vengeance on inventions.  I witnessed the sinner, after being sixteen years in the school of Christ, taught by his ministers, and most effectually by his rod, taking shelter in ’the city of refuge,’ in the atonement of God’s providing, and in ’a surety righteousness,’ and finishing her struggles with, ‘All is well.’  My heart echoed, and does echo, and will to all eternity, ‘All is well.’  Glory to God; sing, not unto her, not unto me, not unto any creature, but ‘to God be the glory,’ that she is now delivered from ’a body of sin and death, and made meet to be a partaker with the saints in light.’  HALLELUJAH.”