Mrs. Graham received a pension as a British officer’s widow until her death.

“O may we meet; for me, I nothing have, I nothing am.  But One there is, who was and is all that the mind of saint or angel can conceive of glory and of happiness; and he is mine, and I am most blessed.  Lengthen on, ye shadows, until all is shadow on these orbs of flesh.  Then, O then,

           “’My captive soul set free

From cloggish earth which oft has made me sigh,
Ascends the eternal hills, as seen to see,
As known to know, and grasp the Deity.’”

“1802.

“Our friend B——­ has now proved how far it is safe to leave the fate of eternity unsettled.  He is gone to the state of the dead:  with whom his soul is gathered, He only knows whose mercy none ought to limit; he is gone to his own place; if without a Surety-righteousness, which he sought not after in health, we know where that place is; but after reading of a thief on the cross, nothing with God is impossible.  My mind is much impressed; that sentence rings in my ears, so often repeated, ’I am determined to do all the good I can, and leave the rest to God.  I have no time to search.’  Oh, oh, one thing is needful.

“’Life’s a folly, age a dream
Borne along the common stream,
Earth’s a bubble light as air,
If my rest be centered there. 
How can that be solid joy
Which a moment may destroy?’

“Mr. B——­ was seized with the fever in its most malignant form; for him every genius was exerted, and the medical store ransacked for the healing balsam, but in vain.  The Judge calls for the soul, and the body must, at his command, dislodge its tenant; how awful, if no surety was at hand, if he must stand naked—­we know the rest:  did I say we know?  O no.  What can we know of that wrath which in the garden of Gethsemane, when no murderous hand was near, no high-priest, no council, or cross, wrung the blood through every pore of the pure, the innocent Lamb of God, supported by Godhead.  If such things were done in the green tree, what shall be done in the dry?”

Another of her grandchildren was shortly after removed by death; his illness is noticed in the following meditation: 

“AUGUST, 1802.

“’And that which cometh into your mind shall not be at all, that ye say, We will be as the heathen, as the families of the countries, to serve wood and stone.’  ’And I will bring you into the wilderness, and there will I plead with you face to face:  like as I pleaded with your fathers in the wilderness of the land of Egypt, so will I plead with you, saith the Lord God; and I will cause you to pass under the rod, and I will bring you into the bond of the covenant.’  ’And ye shall remember your ways, and all your doings, wherein ye have been defiled; and ye shall loathe yourselves in your own sight, for all your evils that ye have committed:  and ye shall know that I am the Lord, when I have wrought with you for my name’s sake, not according to your wicked ways, nor according to your corrupt doings, O ye house of Israel, saith the Lord God.’  Ezek. 20:32, 35, 36, 43, 44.