Ten Years' Exile eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 260 pages of information about Ten Years' Exile.

Ten Years' Exile eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 260 pages of information about Ten Years' Exile.
said formerly, I am a Frenchman through Paris:  and if he thought so three centuries ago, what must it be now, when we see so many persons of extraordinary intellect collected in one city, and so many accustomed to employ that intellect in adding to the pleasures of conversation.  The demon of ennui has always pursued me; by the terror with which he inspires me, I could alone have been capable of bending the knee to tyranny, if the example of my father, and his blood which flows in my veins, had not enabled me to triumph over this weakness.  Be that as it may, Bonaparte knew this foible of mine perfectly:  he discerns quickly the weak side of any one; for it is by their weaknesses that he subjugates people to his sway.  To the power with which he threatens, to the treasures with which he dazzles, he joins the dispensation of ennui, and that is a source of real terror to the French.  A residence at forty leagues from the capital, contrasted with the advantages collected in the most agreeable city in the world, fails not in the long run to shake the greater part of exiles, habituated from their infancy to the charms of a Parisian life.

On the eve of the day when Benjamin Constant was to deliver his speech, I had a party, among whom were Lucien Bonaparte, mm. ——­ and general others, whose conversation in different degrees possesses that constant novelty of interest which is produced by the strength of ideas and the grace of expression.  Every one of these persons, with the exception of Lucien, tired of being proscribed by the directory, was preparing to serve the new government, requiring only to be well rewarded for their devotion to its power.  Benjamin Constant came up and whispered to me, “Your drawing room is now filled with persons with whom you are pleased:  if I speak, tomorrow it will be deserted:—­think well of it.”  “We must follow our conviction,” said I to him.  This reply was dictated by enthusiasm; but, I confess, if I had foreseen what I have suffered since that day, I should not have had the firmness to refuse M. Constant’s offer of renouncing his project, in order not to compromise me.

At present, so far as opinion is affected, it is nothing to incur the disgrace of Bonaparte:  he may make you perish, but he cannot deprive you of respect.  Then, on the contrary, France was not enlightened as to his tyrannical views, and as all who had suffered from the revolution expected to obtain from him the return of a brother, or a friend, or the restoration of property, any one who was bold enough to resist him was branded with the name of Jacobin, and you were deprived of good society along with the countenance of the government:  an intolerable situation, particularly for a woman, and of which no one can know the misery without having experienced it.

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