With songs of love, and bitter cries of hate,
With hymns of faith, and dirges of despair,
And murmurs deeper and more vague than all,—
Thoughts that are born and die without a name,
Or rather, never die, but haunt the soul,
With sad persistence, till a name is given.
These Vera heard, at first with mind perplexed
And half-benumbed by the disordered sound.
But soon a clearer sense began to pierce
The cloudy turmoil with discerning power.
She learned to know the tones of human thought
As plainly as she knew the tones of speech.
She could divide the evil from the good,
Interpreting the language of the mind,
And tracing every feeling like a thread
Within the mystic web the passions weave
From heart to heart around the living world.
But when at last the Master’s second
gift
Was perfected within her, and she heard
And understood the secret thoughts of
men,
A sadness fell upon her, and the load
Of insupportable knowledge pressed her
down
With weary wishes to know more, or less.
For all she knew was like a broken word
Inscribed upon the fragment of a ring;
And all she heard was like a broken strain
Preluding music that is never played.
Then she remembered in her sad unrest
The Master’s parting word,—“a
path to peace,”—
And turned again to seek him with her
grief.
She found him in a hollow of the hills,
Beside a little spring that issued forth
Beneath the rocks and filled a mossy cup
With never-failing water. There he
sat,
With waiting looks that welcomed her afar.
“I know that thou hast heard, my
child,” he said,
“For all the wonder of the world
of sound
Is written in thy face. But hast
thou heard,
Among the many voices, one of peace?
And is thy heart that hears the secret
thoughts,
The hidden wishes and desires of men,
Content with hearing? Art thou satisfied?”
“Nay, Master,” she replied,
“thou knowest well
That I am not at rest, nor have I heard
The voice of perfect peace; but what I
hear
Brings me disquiet and a troubled mind.
The evil voices in the souls of men,
Voices of rage and cruelty and fear
Have not dismayed me; for I have believed
The voices of the good, the kind, the
true,
Are more in number and excel in strength.
There is more love than hate, more hope
than fear,
In the deep throbbing of the human heart.
But while I listen to the troubled sound,
One thing torments me, and destroys my
rest
And presses me with dull, unceasing pain.
For out of all the minds of all mankind,
There rises evermore a questioning voice
That asks the meaning of this mighty world
And finds no answer,—asks,
and asks again,
With patient pleading or with wild complaint,