The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 13, No. 75, January, 1864 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 341 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 13, No. 75, January, 1864.

The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 13, No. 75, January, 1864 eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 341 pages of information about The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 13, No. 75, January, 1864.

There were a thousand shining points on the dingy fur.  He rubbed his heavy eyes and looked about him.  The misty rime of the night had frozen on hills and woods and river,—­frosted the whole earth in one glittering, delicate sheath.  The first level bar of sunlight put into the nostrils of the dead world of the night before the breath of life.  Once in a lifetime, maybe, the sight meets a man’s eyes which Yarrow saw that morning.  The very clear blue of the air thrilled with electric vigor; from the rounded rose-colored summits of the western hills to the tiniest ire-cased grass-spear at his feet, the land flashed back unnumbered soft and splendid dyes to heaven; the hemlock-forests near had grouped themselves into glittering temples, mosques, churches, whatever form in which men have tried to please God by worshipping Him; the smoke from the distant village floated up in a constant silver and violet vapor like an incense-breath.  Neither was it a dead morning.  The far-off tinkle of cowbells reached him now and then, the cheery crow from one farm-yard to another, even children’s voices calling, and at last a slow, sweet chime of churchbells.

“They told me it was Christmas morning,” he said, pulling off the old cap again.

Yarrow’s chin had sunk on his breast, as his eager eyes drank all this morning in.  He breathed short and quick, like a child before whom some incredible pleasure flashes open.

“Well,” with a long breath, putting on his cap, “I didn’t think of aught like this, yonder.  God help us!”

He didn’t know why he smiled or rubbed his hands cheerfully.  His sleep had refreshed him, maybe.  But it seemed as if the great beauty and tenderness of the world were for him, this morning,—­as if some great Power stretched out its arms to him, and spoke through it.

“I’ll not be silly again,” straightening himself, and buttoning his coat; but before the words were spoken, his head had sunk again, and he stood quiet.

Something in all this brought Martha and the little chaps before him, he did not know why, but his heart ached with a sharper pain than ever, that made his eyes wet with tears.

“If there should be a chance!”—­lifting his hands to the deep of blue in the east.

This was the free air in which he used to think he could find God.

“What if it were true that He was there,—­loving, not hating, taking care of Martha, and”—­

He stopped, catching the word.

“No.  I’ve slipped.  I don’t forget.”

He did forget.  He did not remember that he was a thief, standing there.  Whatever substance had been in him at his birth trustworthy rose up now to meet the voice of God that called to him aloud.  His lank jaws grew red, his eyes a deeper blue, a look in them which his mother may have seen the like of years and years ago; he beat with his knuckles on his breast nervously.

“If there could be a chance!” he said, unceasingly; “if I might try again!”

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