Ever yours, dear Miss Barrett,

R. BROWNING.

[Footnote 1:  A rough sketch follows in the original.]

E.B.B. to R.B.

                                Thursday Morning.
                                [Post-mark, April 18, 1845.]

If you did but know dear Mr. Browning how often I have written ... not this letter I am about to write, but another better letter to you, ... in the midst of my silence, ... you would not think for a moment that the east wind, with all the harm it does to me, is able to do the great harm of putting out the light of the thought of you to my mind; for this, indeed, it has no power to do.  I had the pen in my hand once to write; and why it fell out, I cannot tell you.  And you see, ... all your writing will not change the wind!  You wished all manner of good to me one day as the clock struck ten; yes, and I assure you I was better that day—­and I must not forget to tell you so though it is so long since.  And therefore, I was logically bound to believe that you had never thought of me since ... unless you thought east winds of me! That was quite clear; was it not? or would have been; if it had not been for the supernatural conviction, I had above all, of your kindness, which was too large to be taken in the hinge of a syllogism.  In fact I have long left off thinking that logic proves anything—­it doesn’t, you know.

But your Lamia has taught you some subtle ‘viperine’ reasoning and motiving, for the turning down one street instead of another.  It was conclusive.

Ah—­but you will never persuade me that I am the better, or as well, for the thing that I have not.  We look from different points of view, and yours is the point of attainment.  Not that you do not truly say that, when all is done, we must come home to place our engines, and act by our own strength.  I do not want material as material; no one does—­but every life requires a full experience, a various experience—­and I have a profound conviction that where a poet has been shut from most of the outward aspects of life, he is at a lamentable disadvantage.  Can you, speaking for yourself, separate the results in you from the external influences at work around you, that you say so boldly that you get nothing from the world?  You do not directly, I know—­but you do indirectly and by a rebound.  Whatever acts upon you, becomes you—­and whatever you love or hate, whatever charms you or is scorned by you, acts on you and becomes you.  Have you read the ‘Improvisatore’? or will you?  The writer seems to feel, just as I do, the good of the outward life; and he is a poet in his soul.  It is a book full of beauty and had a great charm to me.