“It may be that these will finally take him from me!

“No one undergoes slight without feeling it, and I feel that I am slighted, though young, beautiful and virtuous.  Now, can I keep from thinking this way?  Can I control my anger at the thought that Adolphe is dining in the city without me?  I take no part in his triumphs; I do not hear the witty or profound remarks made to others!  I could no longer be content with bourgeois receptions whence he rescued me, upon finding me distinguee, wealthy, young, beautiful and witty.  There lies the evil, and it is irremediable.

“In a word, for some cause, it is only since I cannot go to a certain salon that I want to go there.  Nothing is more natural of the ways of a human heart.  The ancients were wise in having their gyneceums.  The collisions between the pride of the women, caused by these gatherings, though it dates back only four centuries, has cost our own day much disaffection and numerous bitter debates.

“Be that as it may, my dear, Adolphe is always warmly welcomed when he comes back home.  Still, no nature is strong enough to await always with the same ardor.  What a morrow that will be, following the evening when his welcome is less warm!

“Now do you see the depth of the fold which I mentioned?  A fold in the heart is an abyss, like a crevasse in the Alps—­a profundity whose depth and extent we have never been able to calculate.  Thus it is between two beings, no matter how near they may be drawn to each other.  One never realizes the weight of suffering which oppresses his friend.  This seems such a little thing, yet one’s life is affected by it in all its length, in all its breadth.  I have thus argued with myself; but the more I have argued, the more thoroughly have I realized the extent of this hidden sorrow.  And I can only let the current carry me whither it will.

“Two voices struggle for supremacy when—­by a rarely fortunate chance —­I am alone in my armchair waiting for Adolphe.  One, I would wager, comes from Eugene Delacroix’s Faust which I have on my table.  Mephistopheles speaks, that terrible aide who guides the swords so dexterously.  He leaves the engraving, and places himself diabolically before me, grinning through the hole which the great artist has placed under his nose, and gazing at me with that eye whence fall rubies, diamonds, carriages, jewels, laces, silks, and a thousand luxuries to feed the burning desire within me.

“‘Are you not fit for society?’ he asks.  ’You are the equal of the fairest duchesses.  Your voice is like a siren’s, your hands command respect and love.  Ah! that arm!—­place bracelets upon it, and how pleasingly it would rest upon the velvet of a robe!  Your locks are chains which would fetter all men.  And you could lay all your triumphs at Adolphe’s feet, show him your power and never use it.  Then he would fear, where now he lives in insolent certainty.