PART III.
O the weary, dark, impossible days,
That have dragg’d their lingering
length since then!
O the cruel sunshine’s merciless
blaze!
O the unnatural faces of men!
I was told it all—it was all
explain’d;
And they all declar’d that I understood;
But only one knowledge on earth remain’d,
I knew that Harry was noble and good.
They had dined together—together
play’d,
Together quarrell’d—who
cares about what?
And somebody, speaking about them, said,
‘They were out and out a thorough
bad lot!’
’They left the village, they rush’d
to the cliff,
A dissolute crew that good Christians
condemn’—
This is the way they keep talking, as
if
I did not know Harry was one of
them!
’Shouting and swearing, and heated
and flush’d,
All talking together, and running pell
mell,
Out to the cliff from the village they
rush’d,
And two men were fighting, and one man
fell.’
And the man who fell over the dreadful
edge,
For ever lost, and for ever must be;
There was never a sandbank, rock, or ledge,
There was nothing but the pitiless
sea!
I hear it said, without doubt or surmise,
Over and over and over again,
The man who was murder’d was Jack
Devize,
And the man who murder’d him, Harry
Vane!
I dream I am standing on purple heights,
Alone and alone for ever and aye;
The sun is shining with pitiless lights;
I pray that darkness may cover the sky.
I dream I am lying buried in sand,
Alone and alone for ever and aye;
Parch’d and dry is the terrible
land;
I pray but for water before I die.
I dream I am tossing on ocean waves,
Alone and alone for ever and aye;
I shudder to think of the open graves;
Under daisy blossoms I pray to lie.
O daisy buds I am dreaming of you,
Alone and alone for ever and aye;
From a dream of daisies scatter’d
with dew
I wake with a start, and a piercing cry.
Let me but dream of affliction and shame,
Of saints that punish and sinners that
cower,
Of troubles by sickness and sword and
flame,
And not of an innocent daisy flower!
I am haunted by words—by seven
words—
Seven words echoing everywhere;
They are borne on breezes, and sung by
birds,
They are written on earth and sea and
air.
I think there is nothing else is my own;
I think there is nothing else is alive;
Seven words and I are always alone;
The world about me may hunger and strive.
I have heard that mystic meaning is hid,
I have heard that wonderful things are
made,
Of the number seven—may God
forbid—
For I cannot tell, and I feel afraid.
The sweetest poem that ever was writ—
Do you not know it?—is ‘We
are seven;’
For the dear little girl who talks in
it,
Will not give up her brothers in Heaven.