By this time my curiosity began to abate, and my appetite to increase; the company of fools may at first make us smile, but at last never fails of rendering us melancholy; I therefore pretended to recollect a prior engagement, and after having shown my respect to the house, according to the fashion of the English, by giving the old servant a piece of money at the door, I took my leave; Mr. Tibbs assuring me that dinner, if I stayed, would be ready at least in less than two hours.
CHARLES CHURCHILL.
(1731-1764.)
XLIV. THE JOURNEY.
Churchill devoted himself principally to satirical attacks upon actors and the stage as a whole. His Rosciad created quite a panic among the disciples of Thespis, even the mighty Garrick courting this terrible censor morum. His own morals were but indifferent.
Some of my friends (for friends I must
suppose
All, who, not daring to appear my foes,
Feign great good-will, and not more full
of spite
Than full of craft, under false colours
fight)
Some of my friends (so lavishly I print)
As more in sorrow than in anger, hint
(Tho’ that indeed will scarce admit
a doubt)
That I shall run my stock of genius out,
My no great stock, and, publishing so
fast,
Must needs become a bankrupt at the last.
Recover’d from the vanity
of youth,
I feel, alas! this melancholy truth,
Thanks to each cordial, each advising
friend,
And am, if not too late, resolv’d
to mend,
Resolv’d to give some respite to
my pen,
Apply myself once more to books and men,
View what is present, what is past review,
And my old stock exhausted, lay in new.
For twice six moons (let winds, turn’d
porters, bear
This oath to Heav’n), for twice
six moons, I swear,
No Muse shall tempt me with her siren
lay,
Nor draw me from Improvement’s thorny
way;
Verse I abjure, nor will forgive that
friend,
Who in my hearing shall a rhyme commend.
It cannot be—Whether
I will, or no,
Such as they are, my thoughts in measure
flow.
Convinc’d, determin’d, I in
prose begin,
But ere I write one sentence, verse creeps
in,
And taints me thro’ and thro’:
by this good light,
In verse I talk by day, I dream by night;
If now and then I curse, my curses chime,
Nor can I pray, unless I pray in rhyme,
E’en now I err, in spite of common-sense,