“Oh, hush!” she prayed. “He is dead, and he was your father. Well, I took him into the other room and gave him a cup of tea, and he told me all about it. Poor Harry! He’d had a lot of pain. And dying is a dreadful thing, if you aren’t old. I’m fifty, but I should be terribly frightened to die. And Harry was not much over forty. I remember him saying just like a child, ’I wonder, now, if there is another world, will it be as jolly as this?’”
“The brute! The beast! A jolly world he’d made for you!”
“Oh, Richard, don’t be too hard on him. And don’t you see that he said that sort of thing because he really was like a child and didn’t realise what life was, and consequently he hadn’t ever had any idea what it had been like for me? Really, really he hadn’t understood.”
“Hadn’t understood leaving you to Peacey? Mother—if I’d done that to a woman, what would you have said?”
“But, dear, of course one has a higher standard for one’s son than for one’s husband. One expects much more.”
“Why?”
“Perhaps because one’s sure of getting it.” She tried to smile into his eyes and coquette with him as she had used to do. But he was like a house with shuttered windows. She trembled and went on: “Well, we talked. He asked a lot about you. Dear, you can’t think what it meant to him not to have you with him. You don’t care about children. I’ve been worried about that sometimes. But that’ll come. I’m sure it will. But men like him ache for sons. If they haven’t got them they feel like a mare that’s missed her spring. Daughters don’t matter. That’s because a son’s a happier thing than a daughter—there’s something a little sad about women, don’t you think, Richard? I suppose it’s something to do with this business of having children—and men like that do so love happiness. He had coveted you most terribly when he saw you about the lanes. Truly he had. Then he said he felt tired, and he lay down on the couch. I covered him with a rug, and he had a little sleep. Then he woke up and said he must go because there was a solicitor coming at four, and he was going to settle everything so that it was all right for you and me. Then we said good-bye. And on the step he turned round and asked if I thought you would like a Sealyham pup. And I said I thought you would.”
“Mother, it wasn’t Punch?”
“Yes. It was Punch.”
She noted the murderous gesture of his hands with bitter rapture. He had loved that dog, but now he wished he could hail it out of death so that he could send it back there cruelly. He was then capable of rooting up old affections. She was not permitted to hope for anything better.
She pretended anger. “You’ve taken more than a dog from him. You know that it’s his money that’s made life so easy for us.”
“I should have had that by right. And you should have been at Torque Hall.”