watched him well from under her lids and had guessed
that his pride was disgusted at his adolescent clumsiness
and moodiness and that he wanted to hide himself from
her until he felt himself uncriticisable in his conduct
of adult life. She had had to alter that opinion
to include another movement of his soul when, as they
travelled together to London the day he joined his
ship, he turned to her and said: “My father
never saw any fighting, did he?” She had met
his eyes with wonder, and he had pressed the point
rather roughly. “He was in the army, wasn’t
he? But he didn’t see any fighting, did
he?” She had stammered: “No, I don’t
think so.” And he had turned away with
a little stiff-lipped smile of satisfaction. That
had distressed her, but she had a vague and selfish
feeling that she would imperil something if she argued
the point. But whatever his motives for going
had been, she was glad that he went, for though she
herself was not interested in anything outside her
relationships, she knew that travel would afford him
a thousand excitements that would evoke his magnificence.
The Spring day when he was expected to come home she
had found her joy impossible to support under the
eyes of the servant and the farm-men, for she had
grown very sly about her fellow-men, and knew that
it was best to hide happiness lest someone jealous
should put out their hand to destroy it. So she
had gone down to the orchard and sat in the crook
of a tree, looking out at an opal estuary where a frail
rainstorm spun like a top in the sunshine before the
variable April gusts. She wondered how his dear
brown face would look now he had outfaced danger and
had been burned by strange suns. She had heard
suddenly the sound of steps coming down the path, and
she had turned in ecstasy; but there was nobody there
but a pale young man who looked like one of the East-End
trippers who all through the summer months persistently
trespassed on the farm lands. As he saw her he
stopped, and she was about to order him to leave the
orchard by the nearest gate when he flapped his very
large hands and cried out, “Mummie! Mummie!”
There was a whistling quality in the cry that instantly
convinced her. She drew herself taut and prepared
to deal with him as a spirited woman deals with a
blackmailer, but as he ran towards her, piping exultantly,
“Now I’m sixteen I can say who I want to
live with—the vicar says so,” she
remembered that he was her son, and suffered herself
to be folded in his arms, which embraced her closely
but without suggestion of strength.
That day, at least, she had played her part according to her duty: she had corrected so far as possible the sin of her inner being. It had not been so very difficult, for Roger had shown himself just as goldenhearted as he had been as a child. He would not speak of the years of ill-treatment from which he had emerged, save to say tediously, over and over again, with a revolting, grateful whine in his voice, how hard Aunt Susan had worked to keep the peace when