of Pontius Pilate and had watched through the carven
windows the two stone women that pray for ever among
the flowers in the courtyard; he had lingered by the
market-stalls observing their exquisite, unprofitable
trade. He was telling not half the beauty that
he recollected, save in a phrase that he now and then
dropped to the girl’s manifest appetite for such
things, and he took a malign pleasure in painting,
so to speak, advertisement matter across the sky of
his landscapes so that Mr. Philip could swallow them
as being of potential commercial value and not mere
foolish sensuous enjoyment. “There’s
so little real wealth in the country that they have
to buy and sell mere pretty things for God knows what
fraction of a farthing. On the stalls where you’d
have cheap clocks and crockery and Austrian glass,
they had stacks of violets and carnations—
violetas
y claveles....” Then a chill and a dimness
passed over the bright spectacle and a sunset flamed
up half across the sky as though light had been driven
out of the gates by the sword and had scaled the heaven
that it might storm the city from above. The lanes
became little runnels of darkness and night slowly
silted up the broader streets. The incessant
orgy of sound that by day had been but the tuneless
rattling of healthy throats and the chatter of castanets
became charged with tragedy by its passage through
the grave twilight. The people pressed about
him like vivacious ghosts, differentiating themselves
from the dusk by wearing white flowers in their hair
or cherishing the glow-worm tip of a cigarette between
their lips.
He remembered it very well. For that was a night
that the torment of loneliness had rushed in upon
him, an experience of the pain that had revisited
him so often that a little more and he would be reconciled
to the idea of death. Even then he had been intelligent
about the mood and had known that his was not a loneliness
that could be exorcised by any of the beautiful brown
bodies which here professed the arts of love and the
dance and that drunkenness which would bring a physical
misery to match his mental state. Though this
was wisdom, it added to his sense of being lost in
black space like a wandering star. In the end
he had gone into a cafe and drunk manzanilla, and
with the limp complaisance of a wrecked seasick man
whose raft has shivered and left him to the mercy of
an octopus he had suffered adoption by a party of German
engineers, who had made very merry with stories of
tipsy priests and nuns who had not lived up to their
position as the brides of Christ. Dismal night,
forerunner of a hundred such. “Oh, God,
what is the use of it all? I sit here yarning
to this damned little dwarf of a solicitor and this
girl who is sick to go to these countries from which
I’ve come back cold and famined....”