the title and the estate could not be alienated, yet
the enormous personal property could, and even his
love for the fair Italian could not reconcile him
to risk the chance of enduring what he would have
called poverty. He purchased a villa at Leghorn,
and leaving the ship almost entirely at my command,
lived for the time at least as though there was nothing
on this earth to care for but love and beauty.
The chaplain had been sworn to secresy, and the other
officers of the ship thought it was merely some amour
of their commander’s, and whatever they thought
of his morals, they of course took good care to say
nothing. The chaplain died soon after, and I remained
the sole living witness of the marriage. The
birth of a son, however, instead of linking their
hearts closer together, became the apple of discord
between them. She pressed him to acknowledge
her as his wife to the numerous English families who
were settled around Leghorn, and who refused to associate
with one in her equivocal position. She had borne
their slights patiently when only directed against
herself, but the feelings of a mother were aroused
when the finger of scorn was pointed at her child.
It was too evident, also, that his affection for her
was on the wane. He was absent from her more
frequently—spoke of the necessity of attending
to his duty—his duty! oh, the ready excuse
man finds to do evil. Better far for that poor
girl would it have been to have been buried in the
deepest recesses of the cloister, than to have attracted
the notice of that vile unprincipled nobleman.
It was about this time the old Earl died, and he quitted
the service. There was no bar now for his acknowledging
her as his wife—but he was satiated—his
fleeting passion had evaporated. He had visited
England in the interval, and seen the bride destined
for him by his father: and her beauty, the enormous
addition to his wealth and power which would accrue
from the marriage, tempted him, and he now regarded
the woman who had surrendered to him the most sacred
of man’s earthly trusts—her young
heart’s first affections, her hopes of earthly
happiness—as a barrier to his pride and
the vile passion he dared to dignify with the name
of love: and when she now asked him to do her
the justice which he could no longer plead his father’s
anger for denying—O God, where were thy
thunderbolts!—he told her that their marriage
was a sham one, that the chaplain was but a servant
in disguise, and that in truth she was only his mistress.
I had been dismissed the service through him—I
will speak of that anon—the chaplain was
dead—she did not even know his name or mine—how
could she help herself? She never held up her
head after this. She refused all support from
him, though he offered to settle upon her a considerable
pension. For five years she supported herself
by teaching music at Florence, whither she removed
with an attendant whom her gentle manners had attached
to her, and from whom, years after, I learned these