wisdom which I can discern, the proper name of which
is Chance. Who have I, for instance, to thank
but myself—my own energy of character,
my own perseverance of purpose, my own determined
will—for accomplishing my own projects?
I can perceive no other agent, either visible or invisible.
It is, however, a hard creed—a painful
creed, and one which requires great strength of mind
to entertain. Yet, on the other hand, when I reflect
that it may be only the result of a reaction in principle,
proceeding from a latent conviction that all is not
right within, and that we reject the tribunal because
we are conscious that it must condemn us—abjure
the authority of the court because we have violated
its jurisdiction; yes, when I reflect upon this, it
is then that these visitations of gloom and wretchedness
sometimes agonize my mind until it becomes dark and
heated, like hell, and I curse both myself and my
creed. Now, however, when this marriage shall
have taken place, the great object of my life will
be gained—the great struggle will be over,
and I can relax and fall back into a life of comfort,
enjoyment, and freedom from anxiety and care.
But, then, is there no risk of sacrificing my daughter’s
happiness forever? I certainly would not do that.
I know, however, what influence the possession of
rank, position, title, will have on her, when she
comes to know their value by seeing—ay,
and by feeling, how they are appreciated. There
is not a husband-hunting dowager in the world of fashion,
nor a female projector or manoeuvrer in aristocratic
life, who will not enable her to understand and enjoy
her good fortune. Every sagacious cast for a
title will be to her a homily on content. But,
above all, she will be able to see and despise their
jealousy, to laugh at their envy, and to exercise
at their expense that superiority of intellect and
elevation of rank which she will possess; for this
I will teach her to do. Yes, I am satisfied.
All will then go on smoothly, and I shall trouble
myself no more about creeds or covenants, whether
secular or spiritual.”
He then went to dress and shave after this complacent
resolution, but was still a good deal surprised to
find that his hand shook so disagreeably, and that
his powerful system was in a state of such general
and unaccountable agitation.
After he had dressed, and was about to go down stairs,
Thomas Corbet came to ask a favor, as he said.
“Well, Corbet,” replied his master, “what
is it?”
“My father, sir,” proceeded the other,
“wishes to know if you would have any objection
to his being present at Miss Gourlay’s marriage,
and if you would also allow him to bring a few friends,
who, he says, are anxious to see the bride.”
“No objection, Corbet—none in the
world; and least of all to your father. I have
found your family faithful and attached to my interests
for many a long year, and it would be too bad to refuse
him such a paltry request as that. Tell him to
bring his friends too, and they may be present at
the ceremony, if they wish. It was never my intention
that my daughter’s marriage should be a private
one, nor would it now, were it not for her state of
health. Let your father’s friends and yours
come, then, Corbet, and see that you entertain them
properly.”