I am, I say, with an easier heart than I’ve had
for many a day: my son restored to me—my
daughter upon the point of being married according
to my highest wishes—all my projects prospering;
and there is my brother’s wife—wretched
Lady Gourlay—who, forsooth, is religious,
benevolent, humane, and charitable—ay, and
if report speak true, who loves her fellow-creatures
as much as I scorn and detest them. Yes—and
what is the upshot? Why, that all these virtues
have not made her one whit happier than another, nor
so happy as one in ten thousand.
Cui bono,
then I ask—where is this moral machinery
which I sometimes dreaded? I cannot perceive its
operations. It has no existence; it is a mere
chimera; like many another bugbear, the foul offspring
of credulity and fear on the one side—of
superstition and hypocrisy on the other. No;
life is merely a thing of chances, and its incidents
the mere combinations that result from its evolutions,
just like the bits of glass in the kaleidoscope, which,
when viewed naked, have neither order nor beauty,
but when seen through our own mistaken impressions,
appear to have properties which they do not possess,
and to produce results that are deceptive, and which
would mislead us if we drew any absolute inference
from them. Here the priest advances, kaleidoscope
in hand, and desires you to look at his tinsel and
observe its order. Well, you do so, and imagine
that the beauty and order you see lie in the things
themselves, and not in the prism through which you
view them. But you are not satisfied—you
must examine. You take the kaleidoscope to pieces,
and where then are the order and beauty to be found?
Away! I am right still. The doctrine of life
is a doctrine of chances; and there is nothing certain
but death—death, the gloomy and terrible
uncreator—heigho!”
Whilst the unbelieving baronet was congratulating
himself upon the truth of his principles and the success
of his plans, matters were about to take place that
were soon to subject them to a still more efficient
test than the accommodating but deceptive spirit of
his own scepticism. Lord Cullamore’s mind
was gradually sinking under some secret sorrow or
calamity, which he refused to disclose even to his
son or Lady Emily. M’Bride’s visit
had produced a most melancholy effect upon him; indeed,
so deeply was he weighed down by it, that he was almost
incapable of seeing any one, with the exception of
his daughter, whom he caressed and wept over as one
would over some beloved being whom death was about
to snatch from the heart and eyes forever.
Sir Thomas Gourlay, since the discovery of his son,
called every day for a week, but the reply was, “His
lordship is unable to see any one.”