him. How could he have been so wrought up about
it? He looked off over the valley—saw
the steely sickle of the river; saw a cloud shadow
touch the shoulder of a mountain and move down across
the gracious bosom of its forests. Below him,
chestnuts twinkled and shimmered in the sun, and there
were dusky stretches of hemlocks, then open pastures,
vividly green from the August rains.... “It
ought to be set to music,” he thought; the violins
would give the flicker of the leaves—“and
the harps would outline the river. Eleanor’s
voice is lovely ... she looks fifty. How,”
he pondered, interested in the mechanics of it, “did
she ever get me into that wagon?” Then, again,
he was sorry for her, and said, “Poor girl!”
Then he was sorry for himself. He knew that he
was tired to death of Eleanor—tired of
her moods and her lovemaking. He was not angry
with her; he did not hate her;—he had injured
her too much to hate her; he was simply unutterably
tired of her—what he did hate, was this
business of lugging a secret around! “I
feel,” he said to himself, “like a dog
that’s killed a hen, and had the carcass tied
around his neck.” His face twitched with
disgust at his own simile. But as for Eleanor,
he had been contemptibly mean to her, and, “By
God!” he said to himself, “at least I’ll
play the game. I’ll treat her as well as
I can. Other fools have married jealous women,
and put up with them. But, good Lord!”
he thought, with honest perplexity, “can’t
the women
see how they push you into the very
thing they are afraid of, because they bore you so
infernally? If I look at a woman, Eleanor’s
on her ear.... Queer,” he pondered; “she’s
good. Look how kind she is to old O’Brien’s
lame child. And she
can sing.”
He hummed to himself a lovely Lilting line of one
of Eleanor’s songs. “Confound it!
why did I meet Lily? Eleanor is a million times
too good for me....”
Far off he heard a sound and, frowning, looked toward
the road: yes; somebody was coming! “Can’t
a man get a minute to himself?” Maurice thought,
despairingly. It was the mild-eyed and spectacled
Johnny Bennett, and behind him, Edith, panting and
perspiring, and smiling broadly.
“Hello!” she called out, in cheerful gasps;
“thought we’d come up and walk home with
you!”
“’Lo,” Maurice said.
The boy and girl achieving the rocky knoll on which
Maurice was sitting, his hands locked about his knees,
his eyes angry and ashamed, staring over the treetops,
sat down beside him. Johnny pulled out his pipe,
and Edith took off her hat and fanned herself.
“Mother and Eleanor went for a ride. I
thought I’d rather come up here.”
“Um—” Maurice said.
“Two letters for you,” she said.
“Eleanor told me to bring ’em up.
Might be business.”
As she handed them to him, his eye caught the address
on one of them, and a little cold tingle suddenly
ran down his spine. Lily had never written to
him, but some instinct warned him that that cramped
handwriting on the narrow lavender envelope, forwarded
from the office, could only be hers. A whiff
of perfumery made him sure. He had a pang of
fright. At what? He could not have said;
but even before he opened the purple envelope he knew
the taste of fear in his mouth....