one dreams of, when he supposes he shall do his own
duty and make his own sacrifices, without being tied
up with those of other people. My rusty Sanskrit,
Arabic, Hebrew, Greek, Latin, French, Italian, Spanish,
German, and English began to take polish. Heavens!
how little I had done with them while I attended to
my
public duties! My calls on my parishioners
became the friendly, frequent, homelike sociabilities
they were meant to be, instead of the hard work of
a man goaded to desperation by the sight of his lists
of arrears. And preaching! what a luxury preaching
was when I had on Sunday the whole result of an individual,
personal week, from which to speak to a people whom
all that week I had been meeting as hand-to-hand friend;—I,
never tired on Sunday, and in condition to leave the
sermon at home, if I chose, and preach it extempore,
as all men should do always. Indeed, I wonder,
when I think that a sensible people, like ours,—really
more attached to their clergy than they were in the
lost days, when the Mathers and Nortons were noblemen,—should
choose to neutralize so much of their ministers’
lives, and destroy so much of their early training,
by this undefined passion for seeing them in public.
It springs from our balancing of sects. If a spirited
Episcopalian takes an interest in the almshouse, and
is put on the Poor Board, every other denomination
must have a minister there, lest the poorhouse be
changed into St. Paul’s Cathedral. If a
Sandemanian is chosen president of the Young Men’s
Library, there must be a Methodist vice-president
and a Baptist secretary. And if a Universalist
Sunday-School Convention collects five hundred delegates,
the next Congregationalist Sabbath-School Conference
must be as large, “lest ’they’—whoever
they may be—should think ’we’—whoever
we may be—are going down.”
Freed from these necessities, that happy year I began
to know my wife by sight. We saw each other sometimes.
In those long mornings, when Dennis was in the study
explaining to map-peddlers that, I had eleven maps
of Jerusalem already, and to school-book agents that
I would see them hanged before I would be bribed to
introduce their text-books into the schools,—she
and I were at work together, as in those old dreamy
days,—and in these of our log-cabin again.
But all this could not last,—and at length
poor Dennis, my double, overtasked in turn, undid
me.
It was thus it happened. There is an excellent
fellow, once a minister,—I will call him
Isaacs,—who deserves well of the world till
he dies, and after, because he once, in a real exigency,
did the right thing, in the right way, at the right
time, as no other man could do it. In the world’s
great football match, the ball by chance found him
loitering on the outside of the field; he closed with
it, “camped” it, charged it home,—yes,
right through the other side,—not disturbed,
not frightened by his own success,—and
breathless found himself a great man, as the Great