For still you must think, as you eat,
as you drink,
As you hunt with your dogs
and your guns,
How your pleasures are bought with the
wealth that she brought,
And you were once hunted by
duns.
Oh, I envy you not your more fortunate
lot:
I’ve a wife all my own in my own
little cot,
And with happiness, which is the only
true riches,
The cup of our love overruns.
We have bright, rosy girls, fair as ever
an earl’s,
And the wealth of their curls
is our gold;
Oh, their lisp and their laugh, they are
sweeter by half
Than the wine that you quaff
red and old!
We have love-lighted looks, we have work,
we have books,
Our boys have grown manly
and bold,
And they never shall blush, when their
proud cousins brush
From the walls of their college such cobwebs
of knowledge
As careless young fingers
may hold.
Keep your pride and your cheer, for we
need them not here,
And for me far too dear they
would prove,
For gold is but gloss, and possessions
are dross,
And gain is all loss, without
love.
Yon severing tide is not fordless or wide,—
The soul’s blue abysses our homesteads
divide:
Down through the still river they deepen
forever,
Like the skies it reflects
from above.
Still my brother thou art, though our
lives lie apart,
Path from path, heart from
heart, more and more.
Oh, I have not forgot,—oh,
remember you not
Our room in the cot by the
shore?
And a night soon will come, when the murmur
and hum
Of our days shall be dumb
evermore,
And again we shall lie side by side, you
and I,
Beneath the green cover you helped to
lay over
Our honest old father of yore.
* * * * *
A half-life and half A life.
“On garde longtemps son premier
amant, quand on n’en prend point de
second.”
Maximes Morales du Duc de la Rochefoucauld..
It is not suffering alone that wears out our lives. We sometimes are in a state when a sharp pang would be hailed almost as a blessing,—when, rather than bear any longer this living death of calm stagnation, we would gladly rush into action, into suffering, to feel again the warmth of life restored to our blood, to feel it at least coursing through our veins with something like a living swiftness.
This death-in-life comes sometimes to the most earnest men, to those whose life is fullest of energy and excitement It is the reaction, the weariness which they name Ennui,—foul fiend that eats fastest into the heart’s core, that shakes with surest hand the sands of life, that makes the deepest wrinkles on the cheeks and deadens most surely the lustre of the eyes.