CHAPTER XI

“Harriet, poor Harriet!”—­Those were the words; in them lay the tormenting ideas which Emma could not get rid of, and which constituted the real misery of the business to her.  Frank Churchill had behaved very ill by herself—­very ill in many ways,—­but it was not so much his behaviour as her own, which made her so angry with him.  It was the scrape which he had drawn her into on Harriet’s account, that gave the deepest hue to his offence.—­Poor Harriet! to be a second time the dupe of her misconceptions and flattery.  Mr. Knightley had spoken prophetically, when he once said, “Emma, you have been no friend to Harriet Smith.”—­She was afraid she had done her nothing but disservice.—­It was true that she had not to charge herself, in this instance as in the former, with being the sole and original author of the mischief; with having suggested such feelings as might otherwise never have entered Harriet’s imagination; for Harriet had acknowledged her admiration and preference of Frank Churchill before she had ever given her a hint on the subject; but she felt completely guilty of having encouraged what she might have repressed.  She might have prevented the indulgence and increase of such sentiments.  Her influence would have been enough.  And now she was very conscious that she ought to have prevented them.—­She felt that she had been risking her friend’s happiness on most insufficient grounds.  Common sense would have directed her to tell Harriet, that she must not allow herself to think of him, and that there were five hundred chances to one against his ever caring for her.—­“But, with common sense,” she added, “I am afraid I have had little to do.”

She was extremely angry with herself.  If she could not have been angry with Frank Churchill too, it would have been dreadful.—­ As for Jane Fairfax, she might at least relieve her feelings from any present solicitude on her account.  Harriet would be anxiety enough; she need no longer be unhappy about Jane, whose troubles and whose ill-health having, of course, the same origin, must be equally under cure.—­Her days of insignificance and evil were over.—­She would soon be well, and happy, and prosperous.—­ Emma could now imagine why her own attentions had been slighted.  This discovery laid many smaller matters open.  No doubt it had been from jealousy.—­In Jane’s eyes she had been a rival; and well might any thing she could offer of assistance or regard be repulsed.  An airing in the Hartfield carriage would have been the rack, and arrowroot from the Hartfield storeroom must have been poison.  She understood it all; and as far as her mind could disengage itself from the injustice and selfishness of angry feelings, she acknowledged that Jane Fairfax would have neither elevation nor happiness beyond her desert.  But poor Harriet was such an engrossing charge!  There was little sympathy to be spared for any body else.