“Reckon he’s got some queer notions,” she said to herself.

She leaned back in the carriage, feeling more at ease than she had felt for weeks.  She was travelling third class, for one of Lawrence’s notions was that everybody did so, and when Joanna had given him her purse to buy her ticket it had never struck him that she did not consider third-class travel “seemly” in one of her sex and position.  However, the carriage was comfortable, and occupied only by two well-conducted females.  Yes—­she was certainly feeling better.  She would never have thought that merely telling her story to Lawrence would have made such a difference.  But a great burden had been lifted off her heart....  He was a good chap, Lawrence, for all his queer ways—­such as ud make you think he wasn’t gentry if you didn’t know who his father was and his brother had been—­and no notion how to behave himself as a clergyman, neither—­anyway she hoped he’d get safe to Africa and that the niggers wouldn’t eat him ... though she’d heard of such things....

She’d do as he said, too.  She’d go home and take up things where she’d put them down.  It would be hard—­much harder than he thought.  Perhaps he didn’t grasp all that she was doing in giving up marriage, the one thing that could ever make her respect herself again.  Well, she couldn’t help that—­she must just do without respecting herself—­that’s all.  Anything would be better than shutting up herself and Albert together in prison, till they hated each other.  It would be very hard for her, who had always been so proud of herself, to live without even respecting herself.  But she should have thought of that earlier.  She remembered Lawrence’s words—­“I will go softly all my days in the bitterness of my soul"....  Well, she’d do her best, and perhaps God would forgive her, and then when she died she’d go to heaven, and be with Martin for ever and ever, in spite of all the bad things she’d done....

She got out at Appledore and took the light railway to Brodnyx.  She did not feel inclined for the walk from Rye.  The little train was nearly empty, and Joanna had a carriage to herself.  She settled herself comfortably in a corner—­it was good to be coming home, even as things were.  The day was very sunny and still.  The blue sky was slightly misted—­a yellow haze which smelt of chaff and corn smudged together the sky and the marsh and the distant sea.  The farms with their red and yellow roofs were like ripe apples lying in the grass.

Yes, the Marsh was the best place to live on, and the Marsh ways were the best ways, and the man who had loved her on the Marsh was the best man and the best lover....  She wondered what Ellen would say when she heard she had broken off her engagement.  Ellen had never thought much of Bertie—­she had thought Joanna was a fool to see such a lot in him; and Ellen had been right—­her eyes and her head were clearer than her poor sister’s....  She expected she would be home in time for tea—­Ellen would be terrible surprised to see her; if she’d had any sense she’d have sent her a telegram.