Ishmael eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 810 pages of information about Ishmael.

Ishmael eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 810 pages of information about Ishmael.

There was a movement, a low, muffling, hushing sound, that told the unwilling listener that Bee was putting her baby sister in the bed.  Ishmael arose with the intention of leaving his room, and slipping out of hearing of the conversation that was not intended for his ears; but utterly overcome by the crowding emotions of his heart, he sank back in his chair.

He heard Bee return to her place.  He heard Claudia throw herself down on the floor by Bee’s side, and say: 

“Oh, let me lay my head down upon your lap, Bee!”

“Claudia, dear Claudia, what is the matter with you?  What can I do for you?”

“Receive my confidence, that is all.  Hear my confession.  I must tell somebody or die.  I wish I was a Catholic, and had a father confessor who would hear me and comfort me, and absolve my sins, and keep my secrets!”

“Can any man stand in that relation to a woman except her father, if she is single, or her husband, if she is married?” asked Bee.

“I don’t know—­and I don’t care!  Only when I passed by St. Patrick’s Church, with this load of trouble on my soul, I felt as if it would have done me good to steal into one of those veiled recesses and tell the good old father there!”

“You could have told your heavenly Father anywhere.”

“He knows it already; but I durst not pray to him!  I am not so impious as that either.  I have not presumed to pray for a month—­not since my betrothal.”

“You have not presumed to pray.  Oh, Claudia!”

“How should I dare to pray, after I had deliberately sold myself to the demon—­after I had deliberately determined to sin and take the wages of sin?”

“Claudia!  Oh, Heaven!  You are certainly mad!”

“I know it; but the knowledge does not help me to the cure.  I have been mad a month!” Then breaking forth into a wail of woe, she cried:  “Oh, Bee!  I do not love that man!  I do not love him! and the idea of marrying him appalls my very soul!”

“Good Heaven, Claudia, then why—­” begun Bee, but Claudia fiercely continued: 

“I loathe him!  I sicken at him!  His first kiss!  Oh, Bee! the cold, clammy touch of those lips struck all the color from my face forever, I think!  I loathe him!”

“Oh, Claudia, Claudia, why, in the name of all that is wise and good, do you do yourself, and him, too, such a terrible wrong as to marry him?” inquired the deeply-shocked maiden.

“Because I must!  Because I will!  I have deliberately determined to be a peeress of England, and I will be one, whatever the cost.”

“But oh! have you thought of the deadly sin—­the treachery, the perjury, the sacrilege; oh! and the dreadful degradation of such a loveless marriage?”

“Have I thought of these things—­these horrors?  Yes; witness this tortured heart and racked brain of mine!”

“Then why, oh, why, Claudia, do you persevere?”

“I am in the vortex of the whirlpool, and cannot stop myself!”

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