What if I were to see the world like the Child?

Yesterday I went to Robert’s Meadow.  I saw three small city boys, with their splendid shining rubber boots and their beautiful bamboo poles.  They were on their way home.  They had only the one trout between them, and that had been fondled, examined, and poked over and bragged about until it was fairly stiff and brown with those boys—­looked as if it had been stolen out of a dried-herring box.  They put it reverently back, when I saw it, into their big basket.  I smiled a little as I walked on and thought how they felt about it.

Then suddenly it was as if I had forgotten something.  I turned and looked back; saw those three boys—­a little retinue to that solitary fish—­trudging down the road in the yellow sun.  And I stood there and wanted to be in it!  Then I saw them going round the bend in the road thirty years away.

I still want to be one of those boys.

And I am going to try.  Perhaps, Heaven helping me, I will yet grow up to them!

I know that the way those three boys felt about the fish—­the way they folded it around with something, the way they made the most of it, is the way to feel about the world.

I side with the three boys.  I am ready to admit that as regards technical and comparatively unimportant details or as regards perspective on the fish the boys may not have been right.  It is possible that they had not taken a point of view, measured in inches or volts or foot-pounds, that was right and could last forever; but I know that the spirit of their point of view was right—­the spirit that hovered around the three boys and around the fish that day was right and could last forever.

It is the spirit in which the world was made, and the spirit in which new worlds in all ages, and even before our eyes by Boys and Girls and—­God, are being made.

It is only the boys and the girls (all sizes) who know about worlds.  And it is only boys and girls who are right.

I heard a robin in the apple tree this morning out in the rain singing, "I believe!  I believe!"

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At the same time, I am glad that I have known and faced, and that I shall have to know and face, the Crowd Fear.

I know in some dogged, submerged, and speechless way that it is not a true fear.  And yet I want to move along the sheer edge of it all my life.  I want it.  I want all men to have it, and to keep having it, and to keep conquering it.  I have seen that no man who has not felt it, who does not know this huge numbing, numberless fear before the crowd, and who may not know it again almost any moment, will ever be able to lead the crowd, glory in it, die for it, or help it.  Nor will any man who has not defied it, and lifted his soul up naked and alone before it and cried to God, ever interpret the crowd or express the will of the crowd, or hew out of earth and heaven what the crowd wants.