Then rose a wild sound of the human voice choking
Through vile brutal organs—low tremulous
croaking:
Cries swallow’d abruptly—deep animal
tones
Attuned to strange passion, and full-utter’d
groans;
All shuddering weaken, till hush’d in a pause
Of tongues in mute motion and wide-yawning jaws;
And I guessed that those horrors were meant to tell
o’er
The tale of their woes; but the silence told more,
That writhed on their tongues; and I knelt on the
sod,
And pray’d with my voice to the cloud-stirring
god,
For the sad congregation of supplicants there,
That upturn’d to his heaven brute faces of prayer;
And I ceased, and they utter’d a moaning so
deep,
That I wept for my heart-ease,—but they
could not weep,
And gazed with red eyeballs, all wistfully dry,
At the comfort of tears in a stag’s human eye.
Then I motion’d them round, and, to soothe their
distress,
I caress’d, and they bent them to meet my caress,
Their necks to my arm, and their heads to my palm,
And with poor grateful eyes suffer’d meekly
and calm
Those tokens of kindness, withheld by hard fate
From returns that might chill the warm pity to hate;
So they passively bow’d—save the
serpent, that leapt
To my breast like a sister, and pressingly crept
In embrace of my neck, and with close kisses blister’d
My lips in rash love,—then drew backward,
and glister’d
Her eyes in my face, and loud hissing affright,
Dropt down, but swift started away from my sight!
This sorrow was theirs, but thrice wretched my lot,
Turn’d brute in my soul, though my body was
not,
When I fled from the sorrow of womanly faces,
That shrouded their woe in the shade of lone places,
And dash’d off bright tears, till their fingers
were wet,
And then wiped their lids with long tresses of jet:
But I fled—though they stretch’d
out their hands, all entangled
With hair, and blood-stain’d of the breasts
they had mangled,—
Though they call’d—and perchance
but to ask, had I seen
Their loves, or to tell the vile wrongs that had been:
But I stayed not to hear, lest the story should hold
Some hell-form of words, some enchantment, once told,
Might translate me in flesh to a brute; and I dreaded
To gaze on their charms, lest my faith should be wedded
With some pity,—and love in that pity perchance—
To a thing not all lovely; for once at glance,
Methought, where one sat, I descried a bright wonder
That flow’d like a long silver rivulet under
The long fenny grass,—with so lovely a
breast,
Could it be a snake-tail made the charm of the rest?
So I roamed in that circle of horrors, and Fear
Walk’d with me, by hills, and in valleys, and
near
Cluster’d trees for their gloom—not
to shelter from heat—
But lest a brute-shadow should grow at my feet;
And besides that full oft in the sunshiny place
Dark shadows would gather like clouds on its face,