In fine, having lost all hopes of pleasing the Ministry, he began to think in good earnest of retiring into some other Country. January 4, 1630, he writes to his brother, “I am wholly taken up with the thoughts of settling in some part where I may live more commodiously with my family.” The first condition that he required was liberty of conscience. Some advised his going to Rome, because Pope Urbin VIII. was a great Poet, and loved men of learning[161]. He thought the proposal very ridiculous, and joked on it to his brother. December 27, 1630, he writes to him, “It is not reasonable that I should be always in suspense. I shall leave this country too late, but I shall certainly leave it soon.” What heightened his embarrassment was his uncertainty where to go. He writes to his brother, April 4, 1631, “I must speedily come to a resolution: provisions become every day dearer, and the payment of my Pension more uncertain: would it be proper to return to my Country by stealth, and with so little hopes, after doing her so great service? My Countrymen have not the same sentiments for me that I have for them.”
FOOTNOTES:
[153] Ep 64. p. 773.
[154] Ep. 65. p. 773.
[155] Ibid. 67. p. 774.
[156] Ibid. 68. p. 774. 69. p. 775. 7. p. 775.
[157] Ibid. 79. p. 778.
[158] Ep. 149. p. 84.
[159] Ep. 267 p. 100.
[160] Ibid. 201. p. 72.
[161] Ep. 85. p. 780.