By a very humanly understandable metempsychosis she became just a little less shining because more reachable; some of her shine transferred to him.  His conception of the whole thing was physical; hers was not consciously physical at all.  But as she lay, long after he was asleep, watching the candles fade one by one, leaving a fainter purple in the sky, she felt vaguely disappointed; all this business of love-making seemed to mean so much less to Louis than it did to her; he did not take it seriously, or rather he did not make it the high feast she found it.  He could be flippant about it.  For her it broke down every barrier, every reservation.  Louis was able to come down immediately from ecstasy to everyday things.  This, she argued, meant that he had not flown so very high after all.  He was able to make a laughing, half-embarrassed remark to the effect that he hoped no one else was on the roofs round about.  She would not have cared if everyone in Sydney was on the roofs.  For her no one existed just then but Louis.  That had jarred a little.  Then there were no more cigarettes and he had, quite petulantly, complained of the trouble of going down into the room for a new tin.  She had gone cheerfully, as she would have fetched things for her father.  She did not realize that, by waiting on his whims, she was lowering herself in his esteem.  He had taken the cigarettes without a word of thanks.  It was only when she lay awake for hours afterwards, with a vague discomfort that was certainly not physical, that she remembered and was amazed that he could have remembered cigarettes just then.  It did not square at all with her Lover dream.  And the Southern Cross as she lay with unblinking eyes staring into the great, still dome above her, was disappointing.  She had heard so much about it; she had thought it would be a group of flaming suns in the night sky.  And its separate pointers were not even so big and bright as Venus.  She felt, somehow, that she had been cheated a little; and immediately told herself that it was not so really—­either she had expected too much, or else she was not clever enough to see what was really there all the time.

She did not go to sleep all the night.  It was at four o’clock that she crept quietly from underneath the blankets and sat on the coping, perilously near the edge of the outer wall, with the dawn wind from the sea blowing deliciously cold through her thin nightgown.  Daybreak came like the rolling up of a blind; thoughts and memories chased each other in her mind.  She looked across at Louis, fast asleep.  Her impulse told her to waken and ask him to kiss her good morning.  And then she stopped dead.  Her feet were carrying her, very uncomfortably, over the rusted corrugated iron of the roof towards him.  Her brain signalled to them to stop, and they would not!  She felt herself being carried by them quite against her will, and in another moment she knew that her lips would be on his eyes, kissing him to waken him.  And at that moment her foot caught on a nail that the weathering of the iron had exposed.  She gave a little, repressed cry of pain and saw her foot bleeding.