When the battle was over, Samuel came to meet him,
and rebuked him as if he had been a child for what
he called rebellion and stubbornness. The priest
stood up before the king, and told him that his rebellion
was as witchcraft, and his stubbornness as idolatry.
“Because thou hast rejected the word of the
Lord,” he cried, “He hath also rejected
thee from being king.” Rebellion, stubbornness!
Saul was neither rebellious nor stubborn. He
had smitten the Amalekites; in obedience to Samuel’s
command, he had done what he hated to do; he had slaughtered
young and old, but he had saved Agag, and although
he humbled himself before Samuel, and prayed him to
remain, he would not. Saul laid hold upon the
skirt of his mantle; but he departed, and it was rent,
and he cursed Saul, and declared that as the garment
was rent, so had the Lord rent the kingdom of Israel
from him that day, and given it to another better than
he. Then Samuel called Agag unto him, and hewed
the unarmed man in pieces, and declared he would see
Saul no more. Now Saul was brave, the bravest
of the brave, but he greatly feared at times what he
called his Terror. What it was which troubled
him none ever rightly knew. He was not mad as
others are mad, for his senses never left him, and
he was always the counsel and the strength of the
nation, whom they all sought in their distress.
But something had caught him of which he could not
rid himself, and he would come to me with wild eyes,
and clasp me in his arms. I could not comfort
him; and all I heard was a strange word or two about
a Face which haunted him and would not leave him.
I could not comfort him, but it was to me nevertheless
he always fled; and although he spoke so little, for
he dared not name his Terror, he said to me more than
he has said to any man or woman: it was I, it
was I more than any other who knew the secrets of
the king’s soul. My belief is that Samuel
brought the Terror on him. He never forgot that
dreadful day when Agag was murdered, and it was always
before his eyes that he was doomed, and that there
was another man in the land, who was to rule in his
stead. I tried to appease him. I told him
that life to all of us is short, that in the grave
there is forgetfulness, and bade him drink wine, lie
in my bosom, and shut out the morrow, but it was of
no avail. There was nothing to be dreaded in
the thought that some one would supplant him, and
other men would have endured it in peace; but it was
the constant presence of the thought, the impossibility
of getting rid of it, which darkened the sun for him.
Day after day, night after night, this one thing
was before him. It was as if he were bound to
a corpse, and ever dragged it after him. Higher
than any of the people from his shoulders and upwards,
like a lion for courage, and yet he would have fled
even to Death from this thing, for he could not face
it. What a mockery is the strength of the strongest!
A word from the Lord can cause the greatest to grovel
in the dust! It was thought that music would
help him, and they brought to him David, who was skilled
with the harp, and had moreover a ruddy, cheerful countenance.
Gay and light of heart was he, and as he sang and played
the Terror would sometimes loosen its hold, and Saul
was himself again, but it never left him for long.