“Well,” says I, “what manner of hero is your illustrious chief? A very Julius Caesar, I make no doubt.”
“A grave and modest gentleman,” says Phil, “and worthy of all the admiration you used to have for him when we would talk of the French War. I remember you would say he was equal to all the regular English officers together; and how you declared Governor Shirley was a fool for not giving him a king’s commission.”
“Well,” said I, “’tis a thousand to one, that if Colonel Washington hadn’t been disappointed of a king’s commission, he wouldn’t now be leader of the king’s enemies.” I knew I had no warrant the slightest for attributing Mr. Washington’s patriotism to such a petty motive as a long-cherished resentment of royal neglect; and years afterward, in London, I was to chastise an equally reckless speaker for a similar slander; but I was young and partisan, and being nettled by the reminder of my inconsistency, spoke to irritate.
“That is a lie!” said Phil, quietly, looking me straight in the face.
Such a word from Philip made me stare in amazement; but it did not improve my temper, or incline me to acknowledge the injustice I had uttered. My face burned, my fingers clenched. But it was Philip that had spoken; and a thing or two flashed into my mind in the pause; and, controlling myself, I let out a long breath, opened my fists, and, with the best intentions in the world, and with the quietest voice, gave him a blow far more severe than a blow of the fist had been.
“I will take that from you, Phil,” said I: “God knows, your stand in this rebellion has caused you enough unhappiness.”
He winced, and sent me a startled look, stung at my alluding to the estrangement of his wife. I know not whether he took it as a taunt from so dear a friend, or whether the mere mention of so delicate a sorrow was too much for him; but his face twitched, and he gave a swallow, and was hard put to it to hold back the tears.
“Forgive me,” I said, stricken to the heart at sight of this. “I am your friend always, Phil.” I put a hand upon his shoulder, and his face turned to a kindly expression of pardon, a little short of the smile he dared not yet trust himself to attempt.