a flower?” I said—and got to the
window unsuspected, in that way. Instead of taking
away a flower, I added one, in the shape of another
book from my bag, which I left, to surprise my aunt,
among the geraniums and roses. The happy thought
followed, “Why not do the same for her, poor
dear, in every other room that she enters?”
I immediately said good-bye; and, crossing the hall,
slipped into the library. Samuel, coming up to
let me out, and supposing I had gone, went down-stairs
again. On the library table I noticed two of
the “amusing books” which the infidel doctor
had recommended. I instantly covered them from
sight with two of my own precious publications.
In the breakfast-room I found my aunt’s favourite
canary singing in his cage. She was always in
the habit of feeding the bird herself. Some groundsel
was strewed on a table which stood immediately under
the cage. I put a book among the groundsel.
In the drawing-room I found more cheering opportunities
of emptying my bag. My aunt’s favourite
musical pieces were on the piano. I slipped in
two more books among the music. I disposed of
another in the back drawing-room, under some unfinished
embroidery, which I knew to be of Lady Verinder’s
working. A third little room opened out of the
back drawing-room, from which it was shut off by curtains
instead of a door. My aunt’s plain old-fashioned
fan was on the chimney-piece. I opened my ninth
book at a very special passage, and put the fan in
as a marker, to keep the place. The question
then came, whether I should go higher still, and try
the bed-room floor—at the risk, undoubtedly,
of being insulted, if the person with the cap-ribbons
happened to be in the upper regions of the house,
and to find me put. But oh, what of that?
It is a poor Christian that is afraid of being insulted.
I went upstairs, prepared to bear anything. All
was silent and solitary—it was the servants’
tea-time, I suppose. My aunt’s room was
in front. The miniature of my late dear uncle,
Sir John, hung on the wall opposite the bed. It
seemed to smile at me; it seemed to say, “Drusilla!
deposit a book.” There were tables on either
side of my aunt’s bed. She was a bad sleeper,
and wanted, or thought she wanted, many things at
night. I put a book near the matches on one side,
and a book under the box of chocolate drops on the
other. Whether she wanted a light, or whether
she wanted a drop, there was a precious publication
to meet her eye, or to meet her hand, and to say with
silent eloquence, in either case, “Come, try
me! try me!” But one book was now left at the
bottom of my bag, and but one apartment was still
unexplored—the bath-room, which opened out
of the bed-room. I peeped in; and the holy inner
voice that never deceives, whispered to me, “You
have met her, Drusilla, everywhere else; meet her at
the bath, and the work is done.” I observed
a dressing-gown thrown across a chair. It had
a pocket in it, and in that pocket I put my last book.
Can words express my exquisite sense of duty done,
when I had slipped out of the house, unsuspected by
any of them, and when I found myself in the street
with my empty bag under my arm? Oh, my worldly
friends, pursuing the phantom, Pleasure, through the
guilty mazes of Dissipation, how easy it is to be
happy, if you will only be good!