Luncheon was over the next day and the two men were quietly smoking together in the hot, drowsy quiet of the July mid-afternoon before the Bishop found a chance to speak to Fielding alone. There was an hour and a half before service, and this was the time to say his say, and he gathered himself for it, when suddenly the tongue of the ready speaker, the savoir faire of the finished man of the world, the mastery of situations which had always come as easily as his breath, all failed him at once.
“Dick,” he stammered, “there is something I want to tell you,” and he turned on his friend a face which astounded him.
“What on earth is it? You look as if you’d been caught stealing a hat,” he responded, encouragingly.
The Bishop felt his heart thumping as that healthy organ had not thumped for years. “I feel a bit that way,” he gasped. “You remember what we were talking of the other day?”
“The other day—talking—” Fielding looked bewildered. Then his face darkened. “You mean Dick—the affair with that girl.” His voice was at once hard and unresponsive. “What about it?”
“Not at all,” said the Bishop, complainingly. “Don’t misunderstand like that, Dick—it’s so much harder.”
“Oh!” and Fielding’s look cleared. “Well, what is it then, old man? Out with it—want a check for a mission? Surely you don’t hesitate to tell me that! Whatever I have is yours, too—you know it.”
The Bishop looked deeply disgusted. “Muddlehead!” was his unexpected answer, and Fielding, serene in the consciousness of generosity and good feeling, looked as if a hose had been turned on him.
“What the devil!” he said. “Excuse me, Jim, but just tell me what you’re after. I can’t make you out.”
“It’s most difficult.” The Bishop seemed to articulate with trouble. “It was so long ago, and I’ve never spoken of it.” Fielding, mouth and eyes wide, watched him as he stumbled on. “There were three of us, you see—though, of course, you didn’t know. Nobody knew. She told my mother, that was all.—Oh, I’d no idea how difficult this would be,” and the Bishop pushed back his damp hair and gasped again. Suddenly a wave of color rushed over his face.
“No one could help it, Dick,” he said. “She was so lovely, so exquisite, so—”
Fielding rose quickly and put his hand on his friend’s forehead, “Jim, my dear boy,” he said gravely, “this heat has been too much for you. Sit there quietly, while I get some ice. Here, let me loosen your collar,” and he put his fingers on the white clerical tie.
Then the Bishop rose up in his wrath and shook him off, and his deep blue eyes flashed fire.
“Let me alone,” he said. “It is inexplicable to me how a man can be so dense. Haven’t I explained to you in the plainest way what I have never told another soul? Is this the reward I am to have for making the greatest effort I have made for years?” And after a moment’s steady, indignant glare at the speechless Fielding he turned and strode in angry majesty through the wide hall doorway.