of all my wishes. I have listened to Vedic recitations.
I have walked upon the heads of my foes. My servants
have all been wellcherished by me. I have relieved
people in distress. I dare not, O foremost of
regenerate ones, address such humble words to the
Pandavas. I have conquered foreign kingdoms.
I have properly governed my own kingdom. I have
enjoyed diverse kinds of enjoyable articles.
Religion and profit and pleasure I have pursued.
I have paid off my debt to the Pitris and to Kshatriya
duty. Certainly, there is no happiness here.
What becomes of kingdom, and what of good name?
Fame is all that one should acquire here. That
fame can be obtained by battle, and by no other means.
The death that a Kshatriya meets with at home is censurable.
Death on one’s bed at home is highly sinful.
The man who casts away his body in the woods or in
battle after having performed sacrifices, obtains
great glory. He is no man who dies miserably weeping
in pain, afflicted by disease and decay, in the midst
of crying kinsmen. Abandoning diverse objects
of enjoyment, I shall now, by righteous battle, proceed
to the regions of Shakra, obtaining the companionship
of those that have attained to the highest end.
Without doubt, the habitation of heroes of righteous
behaviour, who never retreat from battle, who are
gifted with intelligence and devoted to truth, who
are performers of sacrifices, and who have been sanctified
in the sacrifice of weapons, is in heaven. The
diverse tribes of Apsaras, without doubt, joyfully
gaze at such heroes when engaged in battle. Without
doubt, the Pitris behold them worshipped in the assembly
of the gods and rejoicing in heaven, in the company
of Apsaras. We will now ascend the path that is
trod by the celestials and by heroes unreturning from
battle, that path which has been taken by our venerable
grandsire, by the preceptor endued with great intelligence,
by Jayadratha, by Karna, and by Duhshasana. Many
brave kings, who had exerted themselves vigorously
for my sake in this battle, have been slain.
Mangled with arrows and their limbs bathed in blood,
they lie now on the bare Earth. Possessed of great
courage and conversant with excellent weapons, those
kings, who had, again, performed sacrifices as ordained
in the scriptures, having cast off their life breaths
in the discharge of their duties, have now become the
denizens of Indra’s abode. They have paved
the way (to that blessed region). That road will
once more be difficult in consequence of the crowds
of heroes that will hurry along it for reaching that
blessed goal. Remembering with gratitude the
feats of those heroes that have died for me, I desire
to pay off the debt I owe them, instead of fixing
my heart upon kingdom. If, having caused my friends
and brothers and grandsires to be slain, I save my
own life, the world will without doubt, censure me.
What kind of sovereignty will that be which I will
enjoy, destitute of kinsmen and friends and well-wishers,