say, ’Oh, fie on this earthly life which is
hollow as the reed and so fruitless after all which
is based on sorrow and hath no freedom, and which
hath misery for its lot! Life is sorrow and disease;
life is truly a record of misery! The soul is
one: but it hath to pursue virtue, wealth and
pleasure. And because these are pursued at one
and the same time, there frequently occurs a disagreement
that is the source of much misery. Some say that
salvation is the highest object of our desire.
But I believe it can never be attained. The acquisition
of wealth is hell; the pursuit of wealth is attended
with misery; there is more misery after one has acquired
it, for one loves one’s possessions, and if any
mishap befalls them, the possessor becomes afflicted
with woe. I do not see by what means I can escape
from this danger, nor how I can fly hence, with my
wife to some region free from danger. Remember,
O wife, that I endeavoured to migrate to some other
place where we would be happy, but thou didst not
then listen to me. Though frequently solicited
by me, thou, O simple woman, said to me, ’I
have been born here, and here have I grown old; this
is my ancestral homestead.’ Thy venerable
father, O wife, and thy mother also, have, a long
time ago, ascended to heaven. Thy relations also
had all been dead. Oh why then didst thou yet
like to live here? Led by affection for thy relatives
thou didst not then hear what I said. But the
time is now come when thou art to witness the death
of a relative. Oh, how sad is that spectacle
for me! Or perhaps the time is come for my own
death, for I shall never be able to abandon cruelly
one of my own as long as I myself am alive. Thou
art my helpmate in all good deeds, self-denying and
always affectionate unto me as a mother. The gods
have given thee to me as a true friend and thou art
ever my prime stay. Thou hast, by my parents,
been made the participator in my domestic concerns.
Thou art of pure lineage and good disposition, the
mother of children, devoted to me, and so innocent;
having chosen and wedded thee with due rites, I cannot
abandon thee, my wife, so constant in thy vows, to
save my life. How shall I myself be able to sacrifice
my son a child of tender years and yet without the
hirsute appendages (of manhood)? How shall I
sacrifice my daughter whom I have begotten myself,
who hath been placed, as a pledge, in my hands by
the Creator himself for bestowal on a husband and
through whom I hope to enjoy, along with my ancestors,
the regions attainable by those only that have daughters’
sons? Some people think that the father’s
affection for a son is greater; others, that his affection
for a daughter is greater, mine, however, is equal.
How can I be prepared to give up the innocent daughter
upon whom rest the regions of bliss obtainable by
me in after life and my own lineage and perpetual
happiness? If, again, I sacrifice myself and go
to the other world, I should scarcely know any peace,
for, indeed, it is evident that, left by me these
would not be able to support life. The sacrifice
of any of these would be cruel and censurable.
On the other hand, if I sacrifice myself, these, without
me, will certainly perish. The distress into which
I have fallen is great; nor do I know the means of
escape. Alas, what course shall I take today
with my near ones. It is well that I should die
with all these, for I can live no longer.’”