people from destruction. Would you know how?
I heard whispered promises to meet at dead of night.
I followed; I saw the meeting between an emissary
of Santa Anna and my godly Padre. At imminent
risk I listened to their plot. You were to be
kept in ignorance of the powerful force hurrying on
to destroy you. Santa Anna was to burst suddenly
upon the town, and, ere you could receive reinforcements,
capture the Alamo at a blow. Once in his possession,
more than one of your people were to be handed over
to the tender mercies of my holy confessor. I
warned you of your danger, and happily you heeded
the signs of the time; else you, too, would now molder
beneath the walls of the Alamo. His prey escaped
him, and with redoubled eagerness he sought to consummate
my destruction. I was made a prisoner in my own
home, ere the sod settled on my father’s grave!
I fled in the midnight hour, and you see me here!
Dr. Bryant, I well-nigh cut short the knotted thread
of my life; but one thing saved me, else my body would
even now whirl along the channel of the river.
When I parted from the blue-eyed, sainted Mary, she
gave me this book, and asked me not only to read but
follow its teachings. She clasped my hand, and
told me to remember God, and the eternity which awaited
me, and the judgment of that other, final world.
Oh! if there be a heaven and a purgatory! a God and
a judge! if I sink to perdition, one alone is to blame.
He told me he had power to forgive my sins; that the
more completely I obeyed him on earth, the more blessed
I should be in heaven. Yet I have heard him lie,
and seen him set aside the rules of humanity and the
laws of God! Mary’s Bible tells me ’to
keep holy the Sabbath day.’ Yet, from my
childhood, I have seen our Priests at mass on Sabbath
morning, and at monte and cock-fights on the evening
of the same day! And I have seen them take from
the widow, as the burial-fee of her husband, the last
cow she possessed. I saw these things, and I
said, there is no God, or he would not suffer such
as these to minister as his chosen servants upon the
earth. I said in my heart, purgatory is but a
lie made to keep pace with their marvelous legends
and frequent miracles! There is not a purgatory,
or they would fear the retribution in store for them.
I had none to teach me aright. I mocked at the
thought of religion. I said there is none on the
earth—it is merely a system of gain, and
all that constitutes the difference is, that some
are by nature more of devils, and others gifted with
milder hearts. But I saw Mary—pure
angel that she is—I saw her with the sick
and the dying: she railed not at our priest, as
he at her. She carried her Bible to the bed of
death, and told them to look to God for themselves.
She bade them leave off saint-worship, and cling to
Jesus as their only Mediator. Peace followed her
steps, and much good she would have done, but my Padre
interfered, peremptorily ordered all good Papists
to shun her as they would an incarnate demon, and
frightened many into submission with his marvelous
tales and threats of purgatory. I said to myself,
if there be truth in God and religion, this Mary walketh
in the right path, for like an angel of mercy and
light she ever seems. She was the hope, the joy,
the blessing of all who knew her. Oh! I
will come to you, Mary, and learn of you, and die
near, that you may be with me in the hour of rest.”