XIX
My pain paints out my love
in doleful verse,
The lively glass
wherein she may behold it;
My verse her wrong
to me doth still rehearse,
But so as it lamenteth
to unfold it.
Myself with ceaseless tears
my harms bewail,
And her obdurate
heart not to be moved;
Though long-continued
woes my senses fail,
And curse the
day, the hour when first I loved.
She takes the glass wherein
herself she sees,
In bloody colours
cruelly depainted;
And her poor prisoner
humbly on his knees,
Pleading for grace,
with heart that never fainted.
She breaks the glass; alas,
I cannot choose
But grieve that I should so
my labour lose!
XX
Great is the joy that no tongue
can express!
Fair babe new
born, how much dost thou delight me!
But what, is mine
so great? Yea, no whit less!
So great that
of all woes it doth acquite me.
It’s fair Fidessa that
this comfort bringeth,
Who sorry for
the wrongs by her procured,
Delightful tunes
of love, of true love singeth,
Wherewith her
too chaste thoughts were ne’er inured.
She loves, she saith, but
with a love not blind.
Her love is counsel
that I should not love,
But upon virtues
fix a stayed mind.
But what!
This new-coined love, love doth reprove?
If this be love of which you
make such store,
Sweet, love me less, that
you may love me more!
XXI
He that will Caesar be, or
else not be—
Who can aspire
to Caesar’s bleeding fame,
Must be of high
resolve; but what is he
That thinks to
gain a second Caesar’s name?
Whoe’er he be that climbs
above his strength,
And climbeth high,
the greater is his fall!
For though he
sit awhile, we see at length,
His slippery place
no firmness hath at all,
Great is his bruise that falleth
from on high.
This warneth me
that I should not aspire;
Examples should
prevail; I care not, I!
I perish must
or have what I desire!
This humour doth with mine
full well agree
I must Fidessa’s be,
or else not be!
XXII
It was of love, ungentle gentle
boy!
That thou didst
come and harbour in my breast;
Not of intent
my body to destroy,
And have my soul,
with restless cares opprest.
But sith thy love doth turn
unto my pain,
Return to Greece,
sweet lad, where thou wast born.
Leave me alone
my griefs to entertain,
If thou forsake
me, I am less forlorn;
Although alone, yet shall
I find more ease.
Then see thou
hie thee hence, or I will chase thee;
Men highly wronged
care not to displease;
My fortune hangs
on thee, thou dost disgrace me,
Yet at thy farewell, play
a friendly part;
To make amends, fly to Fidessa’s
heart.