Winged with sad woes, why
doth fair zephyr blow
Upon my face,
the map of discontent?
Is it to have
the weeds of sorrow grow
So long and thick,
that they will ne’er be spent?
No, fondling, no! It
is to cool the fire
Which hot desire
within thy breast hath made.
Check him but
once and he will soon retire.
O but he sorrows
brought which cannot fade!
The sorrows that he brought,
he took from thee,
Which fair Fidessa
span and thou must wear!
Yet hath she nothing
done of cruelty,
But for her sake
to try what thou wilt bear.
Come, sorrows, come!
You are to me assigned;
I’ll bear you all, it
is Fidessa’s mind.
XII
O if my heavenly sighs must
prove annoy,
Which are the
sweetest music to my heart,
Let it suffice
I count them as my joy,
Sweet bitter joy
and pleasant painful smart!
For when my breast is clogged
with thousand cares,
That my poor loaded
heart is like to break,
Then every sigh
doth question how it fares,
Seeming to add
their strength, which makes me weak;
Yet for they friendly are,
I entertain them,
And they too well
are pleased with their host.
But I, had not
Fidessa been, ere now had slain them;
It’s for
her cause they live, in her they boast;
They promise help but when
they see her face;
They fainting yield, and dare
not sue for grace.
XIII
Compare me to the child that
plays with fire,
Or to the fly
that dieth in the flame,
Or to the foolish
boy that did aspire
To touch the glory
of high heaven’s frame;
Compare me to Leander struggling
in the waves,
Not able to attain
his safety’s shore,
Or to the sick
that do expect their graves,
Or to the captive
crying evermore;
Compare me to the weeping
wounded hart,
Moaning with tears
the period of his life,
Or to the boar
that will not feel the smart,
When he is stricken
with the butcher’s knife;
No man to these can fitly
me compare;
These live to die, I die to
live in care.
XIV
When silent sleep had closed
up mine eyes,
My watchful mind
did then begin to muse;
A thousand pleasing
thoughts did then arise,
That sought by
slights their master to abuse.
I saw, O heavenly sight!
Fidessa’s face,
And fair dame
nature blushing to behold it;
Now did she laugh,
now wink, now smile apace,
She took me by
the hand and fast did hold it;
Sweetly her sweet body did
she lay down by me;
“Alas, poor
wretch,” quoth she, “great is thy sorrow;
But thou shall
comfort find if thou wilt try me.
I hope, sir boy,
you’ll tell me news to-morrow.”
With that, away she went,
and I did wake withal;
When ah! my honey thoughts
were turned to gall.