Thou leaden brain, which censur’st
what I write,
And sayst my lines be dull
and do not move,
I marvel not thou feel’st
not my delight,
Which never felt’st
my fiery touch of love;
But thou whose
pen hath like a packhorse served,
Whose stomach unto gall hath
turned thy food,
Whose senses like poor prisoners,
hunger-starved
Whose grief hath parched thy
body, dried thy blood;
Thou which hast
scorned life and hated death,
And in a moment, mad, sober,
glad, and sorry;
Thou which hast banned thy
thoughts and curst thy birth
With thousand plagues more
than in purgatory;
Thou thus whose
spirit love in his fire refines,
Come thou and
read, admire, applaud my lines!
L
As in some countries far remote
from hence,
The wretched creature destined
to die,
Having the judgment due to
his offence,
By surgeons begged, their
art on him to try,
Which on the living
work without remorse,
First make incision on each
mastering vein,
Then staunch the bleeding,
then transpierce the corse,
And with their balms recure
the wounds again,
Then poison and
with physic him restore;
Not that they fear the hopeless
man to kill,
But their experience to increase
the more:
Even so my mistress works
upon my ill,
By curing me and
killing me each hour,
Only to show her
beauty’s sovereign power.
LI
Calling to mind since first
my love begun,
Th’uncertain times,
oft varying in their course,
How things still unexpectedly
have run,
As’t please the Fates
by their resistless force;
Lastly, mine eyes
amazedly have seen
Essex’s great fall,
Tyrone his peace to gain,
The quiet end of that long
living Queen,
This King’s fair entrance,
and our peace with Spain,
We and the Dutch
at length ourselves to sever;
Thus the world doth and evermore
shall reel;
Yet to my goddess am I constant
ever,
Howe’er blind Fortune
turn her giddy wheel;
Though heaven
and earth prove both to me untrue,
Yet am I still
inviolate to you.
LII
What dost thou mean to cheat
me of my heart,
To take all mine and give
me none again?
Or have thine eyes such magic
or that art
That what they get they ever
do retain?
Play not the tyrant
but take some remorse;
Rebate thy spleen if but for
pity’s sake;
Or cruel, if thou can’st
not, let us scorse,
And for one piece of thine
my whole heart take.
But what of pity
do I speak to thee,
Whose breast is proof against
complaint or prayer?
Or can I think what my reward
shall be
From that proud beauty which
was my betrayer!
What talk I of
a heart when thou hast none?
Or if thou hast,
it is a flinty one.