Melanctha did not care much now, any longer, to see John or his wife or even the fine horses.  This life was too quiet and accustomed and no longer stirred her to any interest or excitement.

Melanctha now really was beginning as a woman.  She was ready, and she began to search in the streets and in dark corners to discover men and to learn their natures and their various ways of working.

In these next years Melanctha learned many ways that lead to wisdom.  She learned the ways, and dimly in the distance she saw wisdom.  These years of learning led very straight to trouble for Melanctha, though in these years Melanctha never did or meant anything that was really wrong.

Girls who are brought up with care and watching can always find moments to escape into the world, where they may learn the ways that lead to wisdom.  For a girl raised like Melanctha Herbert, such escape was always very simple.  Often she was alone, sometimes she was with a fellow seeker, and she strayed and stood, sometimes by railroad yards, sometimes on the docks or around new buildings where many men were working.  Then when the darkness covered everything all over, she would begin to learn to know this man or that.  She would advance, they would respond, and then she would withdraw a little, dimly, and always she did not know what it was that really held her.  Sometimes she would almost go over, and then the strength in her of not really knowing, would stop the average man in his endeavor.  It was a strange experience of ignorance and power and desire.  Melanctha did not know what it was that she so badly wanted.  She was afraid, and yet she did not understand that here she really was a coward.

Boys had never meant much to Melanctha.  They had always been too young to content her.  Melanctha had a strong respect for any kind of successful power.  It was this that always kept Melanctha nearer, in her feeling toward her virile and unendurable black father, than she ever was in her feeling for her pale yellow, sweet-appearing mother.  The things she had in her of her mother, never made her feel respect.

In these young days, it was only men that for Melanctha held anything there was of knowledge and power.  It was not from men however that Melanctha learned to really understand this power.

From the time that Melanctha was twelve until she was sixteen she wandered, always seeking but never more than very dimly seeing wisdom.  All this time Melanctha went on with her school learning; she went to school rather longer than do most of the colored children.

Melanctha’s wanderings after wisdom she always had to do in secret and by snatches, for her mother was then still living and ‘Mis’ Herbert always did some watching, and Melanctha with all her hard courage dreaded that there should be much telling to her father, who came now quite often to where Melanctha lived with her mother.

In these days Melanctha talked and stood and walked with many kinds of men, but she did not learn to know any of them very deeply.  They all supposed her to have world knowledge and experience.  They, believing that she knew all, told her nothing, and thinking that she was deciding with them, asked for nothing, and so though Melanctha wandered widely, she was really very safe with all the wandering.