heightened by my ignorance of what I was to undergo.
I was not long suffered to indulge my grief; I was
soon put down under the decks, and there I received
such a salutation in my nostrils as I had never experienced
in my life: so that, with the loathsomeness of
the stench, and crying together, I became so sick
and low that I was not able to eat, nor had I the
least desire to taste any thing. I now wished
for the last friend, death, to relieve me; but soon,
to my grief, two of the white men offered me eatables;
and, on my refusing to eat, one of them held me fast
by the hands, and laid me across I think the windlass,
and tied my feet, while the other flogged me severely.
I had never experienced any thing of this kind before;
and although, not being used to the water, I naturally
feared that element the first time I saw it, yet nevertheless,
could I have got over the nettings, I would have jumped
over the side, but I could not; and, besides, the
crew used to watch us very closely who were not chained
down to the decks, lest we should leap into the water:
and I have seen some of these poor African prisoners
most severely cut for attempting to do so, and hourly
whipped for not eating. This indeed was often
the case with myself. In a little time after,
amongst the poor chained men, I found some of my own
nation, which in a small degree gave ease to my mind.
I inquired of these what was to be done with us; they
gave me to understand we were to be carried to these
white people’s country to work for them.
I then was a little revived, and thought, if it were
no worse than working, my situation was not so desperate:
but still I feared I should be put to death, the white
people looked and acted, as I thought, in so savage
a manner; for I had never seen among any people such
instances of brutal cruelty; and this not only shewn
towards us blacks, but also to some of the whites themselves.
One white man in particular I saw, when we were permitted
to be on deck, flogged so unmercifully with a large
rope near the foremast, that he died in consequence
of it; and they tossed him over the side as they would
have done a brute. This made me fear these people
the more; and I expected nothing less than to be treated
in the same manner. I could not help expressing
my fears and apprehensions to some of my countrymen:
I asked them if these people had no country, but lived
in this hollow place (the ship): they told me
they did not, but came from a distant one. ‘Then,’
said I, ’how comes it in all our country we
never heard of them?’ They told me because they
lived so very far off. I then asked where were
their women? had they any like themselves? I
was told they had: ‘and why,’ said
I,’do we not see them?’ they answered,
because they were left behind. I asked how the
vessel could go? they told me they could not tell;
but that there were cloths put upon the masts by the
help of the ropes I saw, and then the vessel went
on; and the white men had some spell or magic they