he remained so till he was drowned a little time after.
As we sailed southward we came to many uninhabited
islands, which were overgrown with fine large cocoa
nuts. As I was very much in want of provisions,
I brought a boat load of them on board, which lasted
me and others for several weeks, and afforded us many
a delicious repast in our scarcity. One day,
before this, I could not help observing the providential
hand of God, that ever supplies all our wants, though
in the ways and manner we know not. I had been
a whole day without food, and made signals for boats
to come off, but in vain. I therefore earnestly
prayed to God for relief in my need; and at the close
of the evening I went off the deck. Just as I
laid down I heard a noise on the deck; and, not knowing
what it meant, I went directly on the the deck again,
when what should I see but a fine large fish about
seven or eight pounds, which had jumped aboard!
I took it, and admired, with thanks, the good hand
of God; and, what I considered as not less extraordinary,
the captain, who was very avaricious, did not attempt
to take it from me, there being only him and I on board;
for the rest were all gone ashore trading. Sometimes
the people did not come off for some days: this
used to fret the captain, and then he would vent his
fury on me by beating me, or making me feel in other
cruel ways. One day especially, in his wild,
wicked, and mad career, after striking me several
times with different things, and once across my mouth,
even with a red burning stick out of the fire, he got
a barrel of gunpowder on the deck, and swore that
he would blow up the vessel. I was then at my
wit’s end, and earnestly prayed to God to direct
me. The head was out of the barrel; and the captain
took a lighted stick out of the fire to blow himself
and me up, because there was a vessel then in sight
coming in, which he supposed was a Spaniard, and he
was afraid of falling into their hands. Seeing
this I got an axe, unnoticed by him, and placed myself
between him and the powder, having resolved in myself
as soon as he attempted to put the fire in the barrel
to chop him down that instant. I was more than
an hour in this situation; during which he struck
me often, still keeping the fire in his hand for this
wicked purpose. I really should have thought myself
justifiable in any other part of the world if I had
killed him, and prayed to God, who gave me a mind
which rested solely on himself. I prayed for
resignation, that his will might be done; and the following
two portions of his holy word, which occurred to my
mind, buoyed up my hope, and kept me from taking the
life of this wicked man. ’He hath determined
the times before appointed, and set bounds to our
habitations,’ Acts xvii. 26. And, ’Who
is there amongst you that feareth the Lord, that obeyeth
the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness
and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the
Lord, and stay upon his God,’ Isaiah 1. 10.
And thus by the grace of God I was enabled to do.
I found him a present help in the time of need, and
the captain’s fury began to subside as the night
approached: but I found,