I had a part in the first resurrection, and was ’enlightened
with the light of the living,’ Job xxxiii. 30.
I wished for a man of God with whom I might converse:
my soul was like the chariots of Aminidab, Canticles
vi. 12. These, among others, were the precious
promises that were so powerfully applied to me:
’All things whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer,
believing, ye shall receive,’ Mat. xxi. 22.
’Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto
you,’ John xiv. 27. I saw the blessed Redeemer
to be the fountain of life, and the well of salvation.
I experienced him all in all; he had brought me by
a way that I knew not, and he had made crooked paths
straight. Then in his name I set up my Ebenezer,
saying, Hitherto he hath helped me: and could
say to the sinners about me, Behold what a Saviour
I have! Thus I was, by the teaching of that all-glorious
Deity, the great One in Three, and Three in One, confirmed
in the truths of the bible, those oracles of everlasting
truth, on which every soul living must stand or fall
eternally, agreeable to Acts iv. 12. ’Neither
is there salvation in any other, for there is none
other name under heaven given among men whereby we
must be saved, but only Christ Jesus.’ May
God give the reader a right understanding in these
facts! To him that believeth all things are possible,
but to them that are unbelieving nothing is pure,
Titus i. 15. During this period we remained at
Cadiz until our ship got laden. We sailed about
the fourth of November; and, having a good passage,
we arrived in London the month following, to my comfort,
with heartfelt gratitude to God for his rich and unspeakable
mercies. On my return I had but one text which
puzzled me, or that the devil endeavoured to buffet
me with, viz. Rom. xi. 6. and, as I had heard
of the Reverend Mr. Romaine, and his great knowledge
in the scriptures, I wished much to hear him preach.
One day I went to Blackfriars church, and, to my great
satisfaction and surprise, he preached from that very
text. He very clearly shewed the difference between
human works and free election, which is according
to God’s sovereign will and pleasure. These
glad tidings set me entirely at liberty, and I went
out of the church rejoicing, seeing my spots were those
of God’s children. I went to Westminster
Chapel, and saw some of my old friends, who were glad
when they perceived the wonderful change that the
Lord had wrought in me, particularly Mr. G——
S——, my worthy acquaintance, who
was a man of a choice spirit, and had great zeal for
the Lord’s service. I enjoyed his correspondence
till he died in the year 1784. I was again examined
at that same chapel, and was received into church
fellowship amongst them: I rejoiced in spirit,
making melody in my heart to the God of all my mercies.
Now my whole wish was to be dissolved, and to be with
Christ—but, alas! I must wait mine
appointed time.
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