The Interesting Narrative of the Life of Olaudah Equiano, Or Gustavus Vassa, The African eBook

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The Interesting Narrative of the Life of Olaudah Equiano, Or Gustavus Vassa, The African eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 286 pages of information about The Interesting Narrative of the Life of Olaudah Equiano, Or Gustavus Vassa, The African.
said he,’do you not read in the bible, he that offends in one point is guilty of all?’ I said, ‘Yes.’  Then he assured me, that one sin unatoned for was as sufficient to damn a soul as one leak was to sink a ship.  Here I was struck with awe; for the minister exhorted me much, and reminded me of the shortness of time, and the length of eternity, and that no unregenerate soul, or any thing unclean, could enter the kingdom of Heaven.  He did not admit me as a communicant; but recommended me to read the scriptures, and hear the word preached, not to neglect fervent prayer to God, who has promised to hear the supplications of those who seek him in godly sincerity; so I took my leave of him, with many thanks, and resolved to follow his advice, so far as the Lord would condescend to enable me.  During this time I was out of employ, nor was I likely to get a situation suitable for me, which obliged me to go once more to sea.  I engaged as steward of a ship called the Hope, Capt.  Richard Strange, bound from London to Cadiz in Spain.  In a short time after I was on board I heard the name of God much blasphemed, and I feared greatly, lest I should catch the horrible infection.  I thought if I sinned again, after having life and death set evidently before me, I should certainly go to hell.  My mind was uncommonly chagrined, and I murmured much at God’s providential dealings with me, and was discontented with the commandments, that I could not be saved by what I had done; I hated all things, and wished I had never been born; confusion seized me, and I wished to be annihilated.  One day I was standing on the very edge of the stern of the ship, thinking to drown myself; but this scripture was instantly impressed on my mind—­’that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him,’ 1 John iii. 15.  Then I paused, and thought myself the unhappiest man living.  Again I was convinced that the Lord was better to me than I deserved, and I was better off in the world than many.  After this I began to fear death; I fretted, mourned, and prayed, till I became a burden to others, but more so to myself.  At length I concluded to beg my bread on shore rather than go again to sea amongst a people who feared not God, and I entreated the captain three different times to discharge me; he would not, but each time gave me greater and greater encouragement to continue with him, and all on board shewed me very great civility:  notwithstanding all this I was unwilling to embark again.  At last some of my religious friends advised me, by saying it was my lawful calling, consequently it was my duty to obey, and that God was not confined to place, &c. &c. particularly Mr. G.S. the governor of Tothil-fields Bridewell, who pitied my case, and read the eleventh chapter of the Hebrews to me, with exhortations.  He prayed for me, and I believed that he prevailed on my behalf, as my burden was then greatly removed, and I found a heartfelt resignation to the will of God.  The good man gave me a pocket Bible and Allen’s Alarm
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