to a good old age, how many people’s lives will have been a little sunnier because of me.  Suppose I commenced this plan at fourteen and that I live to be seventy, which is not very old, it will make over twenty thousand, and that surely ought to atone for a great deal—­don’t you think so?—­and in a way my life is a kind of atonement.’  That is what he said, or the substance of it, and I have often thought of it and wondered what he meant by an atonement.”

In his enthusiasm over Grey, Neil forgot for a moment what he had been saying to Bessie, who had listened intently, and who exclaimed: 

“Twenty thousand people happier because of him.  Oh, Neil, that is worth more than the crown of England I wish you—­I wish we could be like him.”

“You are like him,” Neil said, coming back to his original subject.  “You make me think of him so much in your sweet forgetfulness of yourself and your thoughtfulness of others, and, Bessie, I am going to try to be like him, too, if you will help me, if you will be my wife, by and by, when I have made a man of myself, and am more worthy of you.  Will you, Bessie, will you promise to be my little wife when I come to claim you?”

He had her face between his hands and was looking into her eyes where the tears were shining, as she said to him: 

“Neil, you do not know what you ask, or all it involves.  I cannot leave my father, and there is Blanche.  You are as good as engaged to her; you said so in your letter.”

“I know I wrote you so,” Neil said, “because I wanted to fortify myself against doing just what I have done, but I shall never marry Blanche Trevellian; if you tell me no, I shall remain single forever; but you will not, Bessie.  You will not destroy my last chance to be a man.  You do love me, I am sure, and you will love me more when you know all I mean to do.  I shall not separate you from your father.  He shall live with us, and Anthony and Dorothy too; though not here at Stoneleigh, except it be in the summer when the roses are in bloom.  Father has a small house in London, in Warwick Crescent; he will let us live there, and—­and—­”

Here Neil stopped, for he remembered his mother’s threat of disinheritance if he should marry Bessie, and he knew she was capable of performing it and if she did how was he to live even in that small house in Warwick Crescent?  But Bessie’s eyes were upon him; Bessie’s upturned face was between his hands, and poverty with her did not seem so very terrible.  They could manage some way, but he would be frank with her, and, he continued, at last, “Bessie, I shall not deceive you, or pretend that mother will receive you at first, for she will not.  She means me to marry Blanche, and will be very angry for a time, and perhaps refuse to give me my present allowance, so we may be very poor; but that I shall not mind if you are with me.  Poverty will be sweet if shared with you, who, I know, are not afraid of it.”