her companions. With them alone she held communion;
and as she watched the soft shadows and the white
clouds take their quiet path upon the hills, she beheld
in them the symbols of her own ideas,—the
images and reflections,—the hidden world
within her made visible. She felt no sympathy
with the realities—the commonplaces of life;
her thoughts were too aspiring for earth, yet found
not their resting-place in heaven! It was no
grovelling, degrading superstition which actuated her:
she sighed for powers above her species,—she
aspired to hold intercourse with beings of a superior
nature. She would gaze for hours in wild delirium
on the blue sky and starry vault, and wish she were
freed from the base encumbrances of earth, that she
might shine out among those glorious intelligences
in regions without a shadow or a cloud. Imagination
was her solace and her curse; she flew to it for relief
as the drunkard to his cup, sparkling and intoxicating
for a while, but its dregs were bitterness and despair.
Soon her world of imagination began to quicken; and,
as the wind came sighing through her dark ringlets,
or rustling over the dry grass and heather bushes
at her side, she thought a spirit spoke, or a celestial
messenger crossed her path. The unholy rites of
the witches were familiar to her ear, but she spurned
their vulgar and low ambition; she panted for communion
with beings more exalted—demigods and immortals,
of whom she had heard as having been translated to
those happier skies, forming the glorious constellations
she beheld. Sometimes fancies wild and horrible
assaulted her; she then shut herself for days in her
own chamber, and was heard as though in converse with
invisible things. When freed from this hallucination,
agony was marked on her brow, and her cheek was more
than usually pale and collapsed. She would then
wander forth again:—the mountain-breeze
reanimated her spirits, and imagination again became
pleasant unto her. She heard the wild swans winging
their way above her, and she thought of the wild hunters
and the spectre-horseman:[41] the short wail of the
curlew, the call of the moor-cock and plover, was the
voice of her beloved. To her all nature wore
a charmed life: earth and sky were but creatures
formed for her use, and the ministers of her pleasure.
The Tower of Bernshaw was a small fortified house
in the pass over the hills from Burnley to Todmorden.
It stood within a short distance from the Eagle Crag;
and the Lady Sibyl would often climb to the utmost
verge of that overhanging peak, looking from its dizzy
height until her soul expanded, and her thoughts took
their flight through those dim regions where the eye
could not penetrate.
One evening she had lingered longer than usual:
she felt unwilling to depart—to meet again
the dull and wearisome realities of life—the
petty cares that interest and animate mankind.
She loathed her own form and her own species:—earth
was too narrow for her desire, and she almost longed
to burst its barriers. In the deep agony of her
spirit she cried aloud—