that this visit, at a time when he was in a state of
debility from previous fatigue, was the immediate
occasion of his own illness. He was very soon
prostrated under the fever. But his medical attendant
apprehended no danger, and advised him to proceed to
Smyrna, in the belief that the cool air of the sea
would be much more in his favor than the sultry heat
of Beyrout. Accordingly, in company with our
faithful Hebrew friend Erasmus Calman, we embarked;
but as we lay off Cyprus, the fever increased to such
a height, that he lost his memory for some hours,
and was racked with excessive pain in his head.
When the vessel sailed, he revived considerably, but
during three days no medical aid could be obtained.
He scarcely ever spoke; and only once did he for a
moment, on a Saturday night, lift his languid eye,
as he lay on deck enjoying the breeze, to catch a
distant sight of Patmos. We watched him with
agonizing anxiety till we reached Smyrna and the village
of Bouja. Though three miles off, yet, for the
sake of medical aid, he rode to this village upon
a mule after sunset, ready to drop every moment with
pain and burning fever. But here the Lord had
prepared for him the best and kindest help. The
tender and parental care of Mr. and Mrs. Lewis, in
whose house he found a home, was never mentioned by
him but with deepest gratitude; and the sight of the
flowering jessamine, or the mention of the deep-green
cypress, would invariably call up in his mind associations
of Bouja and its inmates. He used to say it was
his second birth-place.
During that time, like most of God’s people
who have been in sickness, he felt that a single passage
of the word of God was more truly food to his fainting
soul than anything besides. One day his spirit
revived, and his eye glistened, when I spoke of the
Saviour’s sympathy, adducing as the very words
of Jesus, Psalm 41:1: “Blessed is he
that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver
him in time of trouble,” etc.
It seemed so applicable to his own case, as a minister
of the glad tidings; for often had he “considered
the poor,” carrying a cup of cold water to a
disciple. Another passage, written for the children
of God in their distress, was spoken to him when he
seemed nearly insensible: “Call upon
me in the day of trouble.” This word of
God was as the drop of honey to Jonathan.
He himself thus spoke of his illness to his friends
at home: “I left the foot of Lebanon when
I could hardly see, or hear, or speak, or remember;
I felt my faculties going, one by one, and I had every
reason to expect that I would soon be with my God.
It is a sore trial to be alone and dying in a foreign
land, and it has made me feel, in a way that I never
knew before, the necessity of having unfeigned faith
in Jesus and in God. Sentiments, natural feelings,
glowing fancies of divine things, will not support
the soul in such an hour. There is much self-delusion
in our estimation of ourselves when we are untried,